I'm not strong.

When I say I can do it, I couldn't.
When I say I know it, I didn't.
When I say I'm happy, sometimes I wasn't.
When I say I don't care, I do.
When I say I'm Strong, I'm Weak.

I'm not that strong to take this life
I'm not that strong to face the risk
I'm not that strong to remain static
I'm not that strong to stand for my right
I'm not that strong to face the coming days
with regrets and shame.

Do not torture me with those eyes
with those face
with no smile
with no words
with no forgiveness.

Kill me on the spot if I'm just an eyesore.
Burn me to death if my existense is your bad luck
make me disappear from this world if you don't need me anymore.

Just one thing I want to request
forget me now and never regret.

A Long and Tiring Holiday

Operasi Pembersihan Rumah Hantu
*ni nama besar projek*

Cuti Semester July 2009 memang lama, panjang dan TIDAK BORING! Sebelum balik umah, kalo ada kawan2 yg online kt umah, sume ckp boring3... naik boring aq dgr. Sebagai mengambil pengajaran drpd kawan aq yg kamceng, x kamceng, Farahin, dgn mengisi masa cuti nyer dgn perkara2 berfaedah, aq pno mula la merancang projek2 untuk mengisi masa lapang aq... tak byk... sikit jer... hehe... ok la... ada untungnyer...

Projek 1: Drain in the House
Ini, projek yg dimasukkan selepas masalah rumah dikaji. Kalau rumah org lain banjir 1 rumah, rumah aq nie banjir kt bahagian dapur saja... huhu... maunye tak derita kene mop lantai masa hari2 hujan... kesimpulannya, bumbung kat dapur tu dah berlubang.. aq pon tak tau nape la boleh berlubang...
Sebagai solusinya, aq pon beli la plastik sampah, bukanye luas2, cantum2 dgn salotape n lekat dekat siling. People become creative when they are desperate. Aq setuju sgt dgn kata2 nie... sebab duit xde nak baiki bumbung, aq boleh reduce amount air dekat bahagian dapor jer... nak buat longkang pon dekat RM 800, apa lagi kalo baiki bumbung... huhu...

*gambar tidak available*

Projek 2: Deforestation
Haha... agak la... deforestation... siap bakar membakar lagi.... Disebabkan rumah tu dah ditinggalkan lebih dua tahun tanpa penyeliaan, maka rumah yg lama itu pon dipanjat oleh pokok2 yg suka memanjat. Tidak lupa juga kepada tumbuhan2 liar yg liar membiak... sedikit sebyk menyemak kat depan rumah tu. Dua minggu jugak la amik masa kemas kat depan rumah... ala... tu pon buat waktu petang jer... pagi2 malas sket... hehe... paham2 sudey...

ni masa tgh kemas

dah comel dah... kn??

ni hutan mini kt depan umah

skunk da jadi ladang pisang mini

ini bhn buangan

sudah hilang pon timbunan itu...

Projek 3: Ikat dan Celup
Masa dok UTP dgn Faizal G, ada la beli baju t-shirt putih kosong... ingtkn nk buat ikat n celup kt UTP, last2 buat kt umah... huhu... biar la... ok sket... ada la mende yg nk buat. Dau kaler yg buat ari tu. Warna biru n Warna biru+kuning. 2 hari jer main mende nie... pastu pakai la baju tu... hehe...

Projek 4: Asyura
Ni projek yg bukan aq buat sendiri. kebetulan ada org buat bubur Asyura kat masjid kg aq... so apa lagi, Join la... dari dudok terperap kat umah tak bercampur dgn masyarakat. Ok la... best gak la kacau2 bubur nie.. aq lebih assume makanan nie sebagai kuih daripada bubur. sebab last2 dia jadi keras, tak cm bubur la...

some shot kt tempat buat makanan nie... aq dah ckp panjang kt posting asyura

Projek 5: Transform My Gate
Ni la pintu pagar yg kalo dikunci pon tetap boleh dibolosi dari mana2 pon.. huhu... Pintu pagar ni dah tak ber cat baru. Adalah dalam kat2 20 tahun tak bercat... ke pernah cat masa aq kecik2... haha.... ok fine, 15 tahun tak bercat baru. rumah cat baru, tu pon dlm 14 tahun yg lalu.. haha... meh tgok gambar sikit...
5 projek dalam masa sebulan kat umah tue.... tapi ada lagi la mende2 yg dibuat... xingt la plak... ada shot2 yg mungkin dpt concern org ramai....

tiang kat umah tu dah bengkok dah, zink pon dah tercabut....

rumah ni tunggu masa je nak roboh...

Sebagai rakyat Malaysia yang sejati, kene la naikkan Jalur Gemilang kat rumah, betul x???
MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!

LOVE

This post is not about love anymore... This is a song that just cross my mind... Well, i really love the song and sometimes it makes me smile by myself... hehe.. I'm not mentally disorder ok?? Just smile. ^_^

Words by Milt Gabler and Music by Bert Kaempfert

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you



L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it

Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you

source : http://www.lyrics007.com/Frank%20Sinatra%20Lyrics/L-O-V-E%20Lyrics.html

It's LIFE

I just wanna see
my dream come true

I wanna see my mum
I wanna see my dad
I wanna see them here
I wanna see them right now

I wanna see you in front of me
I wanna see smile from you
I wanna see you talk to me

I want to hug you
to leave every burdens behind
to let me breathe a new life
and we can held each other
all night

I just wanna see
my dreams come true.

THE FANDOM OF OPERATOR by ROBERT RANKIN

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Asyura....

Haha... nie bukan citer anime ke aper.. nie.. dalam masa bulan Muharam nie.... dah jadi amalan masyarakat melayu Malaysia buat bubur Asyura.. bende nie makanan... untuk dimakan..

Sebagai seorang ahli masyarakat yg penyayang... serta mengisi masa lapang, aq pon turun la sekali buat bubur asyura nie.... pergh.... letih.... dibuat dgn titik peluh dan air mata.. ye la.. air mata, coz mata kena asap, meleleh beb.... so dari pukul 1030 pagi, 9 Januari, bersamaan 23 Muharam, org2 Kg Guchil nie berkumpul la kat belakang masjid...

Nak dijadikan cerita benar.... benar la nie.... orang2 tua dan budak2 sahaja yg datang menolong... remaja2, entah hilang ke mana... huhu... sedih2... aq la seorang remaja di sana... xde pon org2 yg ala2 sebaya aq kat sana... sedih dowh...

Tapi, semangat tak pernah luntur untuk mengacau bubur Asyura itu.... panas dan letih... 3 kawah kitorg buat hari tue. 2 kawah kecil dan 1 kawah besar. Yang paling lama nak masak mestilah kawah yg besar tue... dr pagi, sampai la ke petang... lepas asar baru la boleh diangkat.... bila dah habis, Tuhan je la yg tahu letih tak letih hari tue... malam tue, makan malam banyak2... n terus tertidur... esoknyer... sakit la badan nie... huhu....

Meh, tgok sikit gambar2 nie....

tgok, budak kecik jer.. hehe.. tapi, kuat nie... jgn disangka kecik2 x kuat.. hehe..

kacau lagi, kacau lagi.... haha...

makcik2 dgn kesibukan menyediakan rempah ratus dengan makam tangah hari... hehe...

nie, dah kering nie.... mana santan nyer???

pak cik nie teror bab2 kacau nie.. jgn memain... kalah luw....

tiga kawah.... penat kowt... huhu...

"Kita masukkan santan yer tuan2..." ujar pak cik nie... haha...

nie, maskot makan ubi kayu rebus nie... haha...

Happy New Year!!!

Happy New Year!!!!!!

Tetap nak ucap jugak kn??? Well, as long i'm still in January, I think ok lg la.... huhu....
Well, My new year, It was cold and WET.... why???

HUJAN da beb.... huhu.... plus I need to make sure my kitchen won't flood again... Ya Allah, it's like a home for FROG n SNAILS... I just can reduce the water spills, but not remove it... huhu... duit x cukup nak baiki bumbung... alahai... buroknyer rumah nie... huhu....

Well, to those who already put a new ambition aka azam for this year, I wish all of you Good Luck in achieving your dreams...

Adios for today... Wassalam wassini...
hehe...