Jalur Biru

Kulepaskan jalur biru
yang sentiasa bersamaku
ku hilangkan jalur biru
dari hidupku sementara
agar aku melihat dunia

Jalinan jalur hijau kulepas sudah
Kini Jalur biru ku lepas ke udara
terbanglah bebas
terbang bebas ke angkasa

sampai bilakah aku mampu untuk
terus berada di sini?
sampai bilakah aku mampu untuk
bertahan seperti ini?

Ku kunjungi tasik duka
memanggil awan luka
menurunkan hujan wasangka

Tuhan itu Maha Kaya
Segala ilmu ada pada-Nya
Aku hanya hamba yang lemah
tidak terdaya

Bawaku pergi angin
Bawaku jauh dari tasik duka
Bawalah pergi api benci
yang mula marak setelah
sekian lama

Aku penyebab luka
aku memberi duka
kau tiada salah apa
hanya aku sahaja
yang gila

Tuhan

Tuhan, hanya satu aku minta dari-Mu.
Jauhkan aku dari kisah duka.
Bebaskan aku dari perangkap masa.
Hilangkan aku di mata dunia.

Buat baik

kalo hang buat baik kat aku, aku try buat baik banyak2 kat hang. kalo hang pedajal kat aku. Aku serah hang kat Tuhan. Hang tu kena ingat Tuhan. Akai ada ka?

Siapa kau?

Hati ini keruan
mendengar melihat
hati ini terasa tersentuh
bila kata-kata penuh makna

siapa kau?
siapa kau?
siapa kau?

mengorak langkah penuh angkuh
di atas bumi ini
bangga atas hasil usaha
peluh yang lain

siapa kau?
siapa kau?
siapa kau?

mencemuh menghina
berkata tidak berfikir
bantu tidak hanya berkata- kata

siapa kau?
siapa kau?
siapa kau?

kalau biar, kata biar
kalau simpan, kata simpan
mengata itu nombor satu
mencemuh itu dirimu

siapa kau?
siapa kau?
siapa kau?

Ibarat mengaut untung ditepi
bukan melukut tapi mencuri
yang susah kau lempar ketepi
yang senang kau ambil sendiri

siapa kau?
siapa kau?
siapa kau?

nak menghukum siapa sahaja
laksana kau itu adil saksama
cermin diri tengok muka
bukalah matamu yang sudah buta

ini cerita bukan buatan
yang betul dari hati
berlapik tidak hatinya murka
mulutnya ada, akalnya tiada

June

Six things I can talk about my life in June:

busy-but-not-so-busy

Lost my mind

Lost my rational mind

Stressed with my negligence behavior

Got two kids I need to take care

Need to speed my velocity

Kawan baru~~

Alkisah pagi yg hening ini diberitakan oleh cleaner akan kehadiran dua ekor anak kucing yg takde ibu bapa.
So, dah rindu sangat kt safee saya kan, saya pergi la amik anak2 kucing itu ke dalam kotak. Sekor warna oren, sekor warna kelabu. yang warna oren nie kuat mengiau. sedih pulak. Yang kelabu tu sebijik macam Safee saya. Cuma mata dia tak dapat buka. Kena cuci mata dia. Mula-mula bagi dia minum susu pekat yang dah dibancuh. Kawan cakap jangan guna susu tu. diorang tak minum. SO, dia buatkan susu dari creamer kat pantry. Yang kelabu tu tak nampak, so dia tumpahkan. Nasib baik atas lantai. tak pasal2 kena cuci. Diorang minum atas lantai la. Kawan cakap minum smapai kering lantai tu.. hahaha.. Tapi diorang minum sikit je...

Sekarang tengah tido diorang nie.. aman sikit. Ada yang takut denang anak2 kucing ni sebab diorang kotor. Takpe la ek. kita balik rumah nanti kita mandi sama-sama...

Be my dream

Your smile, your laugh, your breath
have been in my life

I took a glance at you
so close
you hold me like
there's no tomorrow

I pray to God
this is only a dream
I pray to my Fate
This is not real

Seeing you far away
is enough to make my day
I don't need more than that
As I like what I had
So please I'm begging for you
don't come near to me
As I'm afraid I'll hurt you
for another chance

Only one I wish my in my life
what I had with you were not real
and please be my dream

I like to hear the fairy tales
with prince and the princess
in the veil
but I don't think it's real
'Coz I'm in real life

Spending the night on your bed
looking at the stars
having breakfast on the bed
with pancakes I had made

I pray to God
this is only a dream
I pray to my Fate
This is not real

I can sing my own song
have my own rhythm,
pull me over from lake of tears
and find my sunshine dear,
Throwing silent puppet aside
and get out from my house,
Face the heavy rain of tears
and find my own path.

Only one I wish my in my life
what I had with you were not real
and please be my dream

First love song

It's summer time
I can see the sun is blazing
with the wind blow my hair
I smile again

My first love song
is on air
Oh I can't forget the past
what we had together

My first love song
I still remember
it was raining heavily
you lent me your coat
and put me in your warm hug
I'm in love for first time

but time had made us
to be apart
I still remember you
writing letters for you
sometimes calling to you
to hear your lovely voice in my mind

As we grew up on this land
I saw each others' plan
you have a dear I can't stand
Then I put things an end

This my first love song
I'm glad to have it here
as my memory I can't let it go
but I have to go move on

Should I take you as my dear again?
Well, I'm not with anyone but my bitter love
Please do not come into my life again
I'm happy and crazy enough
to live my life the fullest

I want to be myself again

My last breath on earth
It'll never be the same as before
I have changed
This is not me
after all

I listen to the music
I've never heard before
reading poems of love
Who am I right now?
Who am I right now?

This isn't me
This isn't me
Who glare with smile
full of happiness
no fear of disappointment
and my tears only for my dears

I'm now hide my sorrowful life
from the world
My heart is no longer can free to fly
I want to be myself again

Hold my faith
I'm losing all my strength
crying tears all nights
having my heart broke apart
This isn't me
This isn't me

Where can I find my old me?
Where can I fond my past?
I have lived in different life
strayed by the current of life
I'm no longer walk my path
I want to be myself again.

I'm too bad

I counted what I had
I have been on this road for too long.
I'm losing myself
I'm losing all myself
What I had done until now?
Am I becoming so cruel?
So cruel until can't afford to see myself
My old self which I have cheered!

I'm turning into a monster
A monster which is not a good monster
I cry myself on my bed
for being bad and so cruel

I'm losing all myself
please help get me back

This life is about you

Hold your breath
take one deep inside
You know you are stronger
than anyone in your life
As many people don't like you
as you are
as you are

Hey! Hey!
Put the hate thing outside
leave them all
never look back at them
as you are not one should put it on
sure they will realize
unless they have no brain at all

Even they are smart with the high grades
excellent life
they are nothing for you
they are only ache
in your heart

Never! Never let you go
you all kind of things
they only you as a thing
so you look at them
as a group of beasts
eating sleeping and playing
catch you when they need to refill

Just leave the place
Ignore the glare
Just put yourself
under the shadow
of the shades
They are not worth for it
they are not your bliss

Keep breathing
this is not over yet
until you know you can yell at them
with no shame if they need
You just control
You just put that beside
Put that beside
Put that beside

Never need to know what happen in the home
Just keep yourself in the corner
never speak when it's order
Just need time to leave
Yes you leave
You will leave

Just put your right hand on your chest
take a deep breath inside
put it outside
you know where you're heading
and know where you shouldn't
when you should acting when you shouldn't

Get up now
This life is about you
and you
and you
other no matter

I think I'll put an end

Blue skies upon my eyes
and the warm breeze kiss my cheek
I think the last string had broken
I don't think I'll have
to do this again

The shore is white with its sand
and the wave keeps coming to my feet
I put my heart in it
now I want to feel free
from you

They pick me when I was needed
They left me when I'm in trouble
who would see this as a friendship?
I think I'll put an end

They think I'm stupid
who just like the kitchen
I do really like it
but you must help me

Doing all things
like I'm a slave for you?
I'm sorry I'm not your Britney
I think I'll put an end

Bring me to the Ilse of nowhere
I think I can live myself
put me on the top of the tree
I can go down easily

Because I never be like
the first time I met you
You will never see my sympathy
as I'm done with you

Mengarut

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Rasa nak pergi pantai
pergi masuk laut
hanyut sampai pantai dalam
mati lemas ke dasar

Quotes: Lemah

Lemahkan dirimu dari membenci
Kuatkan dirimu untuk mencintai

Just another night

Pick me up
to the line of happiness
which is pure
with no lies

Pick me up
away from the tears
from the misery

This is just another night
put me in guilt
tore my heart apart
senselessly

There
I stop in the middle of nowhere
when I lost my track
when I lost my map
I can go nowhere

The sun blazing the ground
The rain cries with me
I just need a guide
from you

I have apologize
I cried every night
and I don't think you know it
as you have your own life

This is just another night
put me in guilt
tore my heart apart
senselessly

Bawaku Pergi, Tuhan

Ibu
bawaku pergi bersamamu

Ayah,
benarkan aku tinggal di sebelahmu

hidup laksana tiada erti
laksana hilang dalam ketawa mereka

rumah kecil itu
aku bakal ada yang sama
cuma masa yang akan membenarkan
aku masuk ke rumah kecil itu

Apa diri ini amat dibenci?
Apa diri ini amat dicemuh?
Apa diri ini amat jahat?
Apa diri ini amat syaitan?

Aku sudah lari
kerana lari itu
adalah sebaik jalan
membawa aku
melihat awan keamanan

Tuhan,
Kusemai benih kemaafan
Kusiram air kesabaran
Kubaja dengan doa harapan
Namun buahnya
pahit dan kelat

Tanah ini bukan tempatku
untuk menanam pokok harapan
kerana tanah ini
sudah tercemar
dengan racun kebencian
dan kekecewaan

Bawaku pergi, Tuhan
Bawaku pulang ke kampung halaman
Aku hanya dambakan
satu sapaan
dari hati yang senang
dan senyuman riang

Itu Kisah Mei

Itu Kisah Mei
penuh amarah, penuh tangisan
tragedi itu satu sejarah

Itu Kisah Mei
yang masih diam tidak berkata
yang ditinggalkan keseorangan

Itu Kisah Mei
Yang melupakan tanggungjawab
yang ingin melupakan tanggungjawab

Itu Kisah Mei
menyeksa hati menyiat jiwa
luka parah berdarah tidak

Mei itu penuh duka
yang benar
ada juga tawa
yang dibuat
di pentas hidup mereka

Coming home...

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
to my hometown.

Sometimes I want to step into my house and say

"Ummi, Abah. Dikme dah balik."

How I hope I can see my mother and my father now and live with them forever....