When I stress- songs compilation in an essay

When I stress, I do not know what to do. Usually, I will turn on the media player and dance, shake my hip as hips don't lie (Shakira). I am in frust and this place, this use to be my playground (madonna). And I stop dance, thinking of you (Katy Perry) for a while as you make me smile by myself. It's true that you are Irresistable (Jessica Sympson) and I don't think We Belong together (Mariah Carey). I may not be a Perfect Lover (Britney Spears) but I just want to be loved by you. There are Seven Things (Miley cyrus) on my desk, my wallet, my laptop, my Telephone (Lady Gaga) , my book, a perfume, a mouse and a camera. I don't think I'll stalk you like Papparazzi (Lady Gaga) if not you're gonna have a Beautiful Nightmare (Beyonce). I slammed myself on the bed. I'm not Crazy in love (Beyonce) coz i think I just fake everything. may be we can hung up (Madonna) and yelling Halo (Beyonce) to the people on the street. or we can go to the beach so you can become a Summerboy (Lady gaga) like we watch in the movie. Crap, may be i can cook a potion for you to drink and die in the quicksand (Lady gaga feat Britney). I think I have Reloaded (Lady Gaga ft rodney jerkins) back my rational mind and commit suicide in the middle of the night in the jungle. That what i call the ultimate stress.

When I saw you

Mmmm

Soft heavenly eyes gazed into me
Transcending space and time
And I was a rendered still
There were no words for me to find at all
Or as I stood there beside myself
I could see you and no one else

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe, I fell so deep, ohh ohh
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be, I'd never be a same

Na na na
Na na na
Ohh ohh ohh
Ooo ooh ooh

Ohh ohh only once in a lifetime love rushes in
Changin' you with a tide and dawn's ribbon of light
Bursts through the dark
Wakening you inside
And I thought it was all untrue
Until there, all at once, I knew

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe, I fell so deep, ohh ohh
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be, I'd never be the same

With no beginning
And without an end
You are the one for me
And it's evident
And your eyes told me so, oh oh yea
Your eyes let me know, ohh ohh ohh

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe, I fell so deep, ohh ohh
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be, I'd never be a same

Ohh no ohh ohh
I'd never be the same

source: http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/mariah-carey-lyrics/when-i-saw-you-lyrics.html

We're not belong together - Mery Kari

I didn't mean it
When I said I love you so
I should not shake my thigh
I should let you go
I know nothing
I was stupid
I wasn't foolish
I was lying on the bed
I could have fathomed that I would ever
Be without your love
Always imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

'Guess I didn't know you
'Guess I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't want to
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
'Cause I have many choices
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby

[Chorus:]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still not that so hard to believe
Don't come back baby please, 'cause
We're not belong together
I gonna lean by myself
When times get rough
I have someone talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
No one gonna take your place
There ain't nobody bitter
Oh baby, baby
We're not belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're not lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the gas station
So I turn the car
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of other lovers
And it's not breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it apart
But I'm falling from my apartment
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
and it hits the boy down there
he's crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell it come from and what went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I don't need you
don't Need you back in my life (in my life, in my life), baby

[Chorus]

Baby!

[Chorus:]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still not that so hard to believe
Don't come back baby please, 'cause
We're not belong together
I gonna lean by myself
When times get rough
I have someone talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
No one gonna take your place
There ain't nobody bitter
Oh baby, baby
We're not belong together

Your Smile

Not a single thing come
in my mind
unless your humble smile
it melts me down

You bright my dull sky
spring the love flowers
color my life
with you

My life was never happy
yet miserable
when I was with you
You made my life.

But then I admit
it's my fault in any way
it's happened
it's fated
I should know this earlier

losing your smile
make me fragile
we don't have any tile
to put on this lifestyle

just keep with your smile
as you have made my day
full of happiness

Leave right now

I'm here, just like I said
Though it's breaking every rule I've ever made
My racing heart, is just the same;
Why make it strong to break it once again?
And I'd love to say "I do";
Give everything to you
But I could never now be true

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I'm here, so please explain
Why you're opening up a healing wound again
I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs at least I�m spared the lows
Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm?
To feel my spirit calm?

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say - you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten, twice as shy
If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to loose you again

Yes, I will.
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper...
I think I better leave right now

source: http://www.lyrics007.com/Will%20Young%20Lyrics/Leave%20Right%20Now%20Lyrics.html

Minggu Hectic

Malas giler minggu ni
sume mende dah jadi tak betul. next week ken submit projek2 n assignment2, serta ada test2 yang masih belum disentuh.
nak je siapkan sume, tapi kudrat takde.
sangat sibuk.
tengok jadual exam pon cam nak bunuh je sape wat jadual tu.
xpasal2 cuti aku tinggal 3 hari je. bunuh kang.
nasib baik minggu ni tak pengsan ke apa,
kalo korang dengar bunyi ambulans masuk utp,
pastu dengar ada budak meninggal sebelum exam,
aku la tu..
haha...

5 projek, 3 assignments, 2 emosi problem, satu manusia, Raman.
ceh!

A crazy day

The time I'm writing this post, I'm in da middle of doing ma homeworks aka report.

After ma holidays, I was not busy with events but ma academics. It is tiring and troublesome coz i have 5 projects to submit. Plus I accept responsibility to handle AGM without thinking twice... haha... kinda unthinkable thing i did in my life. Wa... it's my love, how I'm suppose to let it stuck in da middle of its way?

Assignments, tests, quizzes flooded in this two three weeks. Busy? Definitely. However, i still had time to go out and enjoy the life. Just one night, but that's enough for me. Projects, clubs... these things i reduced a bit but still they haunt me..haha... SIFE always in ma heart.

Looking back at a tests before, I did very bad. Try to do as best I could do this time. Hopefully this sem I get good grades coz I'm gonna use it for ma internship next year. But if God say no, I'll accept it. But I must strive first and struggle my best to do da papers and assignments. Hopefully they will help me in getting good grades.

Spiritually speakin', I have lost the most thing i treasured the most. However i still hope i could get it back. It is not so enjoyable if you see it from your point of view, me too. I said it steal my 2 years of ma life, but it MAKE MA LIFE ALIVE. Regardless whatever people tell me who I am, I think I have to go back to the old one as i think it is better than now. Stop from being something that I'm currently doing. Wanna make a new life, with new environment, new people, new culture. But I think I have to bear this life for the time being. Hopefully I can achieve ma dreams later.

Emotions? I am still playing with it. New loves, old loves, current love, I dunno whether i could get rid of this feeling. Seeing old loves, broken heart, touched, giving out smile with tears inside, regretting stupid actions taken, I'm tired of it. I want to let it go. Dunno whether the one I care the most forgive me or not. I apologize. Say a word coz I'm da one in pain when I don't hear your forgiveness. Hopefully this won't go long or else i might commit suicide on this thing. New love, I don't think it should be entertained coz I'm gonna hurt someone later. Let me by ma own coz I hurt too many people. Current love? I don't have one. Playmates, i have lots. Not a love. let me live without love coz its presence just make me in vain. Hate it.

I couldn't wait to see the new horizons, looking forward for da time for me to break the glass wall and build a new one.Whatever it takes, let this shadow vanish from this earth.

Kristal Sejarah

Ku masih melihat
sejarah lama yang terukir
melihat kehalusan garisan
dan kekasaran kesilapan

ku masih memegangnya
bola kristal yang menjadi temanku
penyaksi segala-galanya
penuh dengan ukiran cerita
cerita tentang seorang manusia

semakin hilang ukiran yang halus
diganti cakaran kesilapan
diletak warna kemurungan

tangan yang menyokong
sudah reput memegang
semakin ditahan kristalnya
semakin banyak membawa luka

ingin dihancurkan
rasa bersalah
ukiran halus di dalam
menjadi pemanis kehidupan
luka di tangan itulah pelengkap kehidupan

Hati meronta
laksana luka ditangan
meretakkan hati di jiwa
tidak tertanggung
melihat badan merana
walaupun menipu pandangan mata

tirai senyuman dilabuhkan
agar duri di hati tidak dilihat
agar jiwa-jiwa yang kudus
tidak mudah risau

mungkin suatu hari nanti
kristal itu akan dijatuhkan
dari pegangan tangan

Sang Masa akan merawat
keretakan hati
dan luka di tangan
sekiranya ada ruang
untuk kristal itu ditinggalkan

Mungkin warna-warna di dalam
akan mengikut jiwa ini
kerana manusia
tidak dapat lari dari sejarah.

PASRAH

Letih, malas, bosan
awan-awan itu menemani jasad ini
dengan setianya

patah hati, serba salah
laksana parasit yang mencengkam
di lubuk sanubari

perlahan-lahan diangkat
tangan dan kaki
menjengah cabaran yang mendatang.

Diri ini pasrah
melihat hari-hari mendatang
menonton ragam manusia
dari kanta dalaman

sesalnya tidak terbilang
marahnya bukan kepalang
namun
pantang maut sebelum ajal
pasti ditepis
segala yang hitam

paksa dirimu keluar
dari paya kekusutan
buanglah segala beban mainan
putuskan belenggu kemalasan

Bersama labuhkan layar kerajinan
merentas lautan pekerjaan.

I run away - Britney Spears

"I Run Away"

You took your love away, too fast
Left no chance to say look back
And now I know the truth,
It makes it easier
Maybe when time goes by,
I’ll understand

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away [x3]

You threw it all away
So blind
You pushed me far from you,
In your life.
Now I know the tears,
Won’t lead to loneliness
Maybe when time goes by,
I’ll understand

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away [x4]

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away [x3]

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away [x3]

Let's pretend, that I've moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.

credited to azlyrics.com http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/britneyspears/irunaway.html

Mengintai Pintu Syurga

Jauh sudah roh itu melangkah
pelahan-lahan di atas satu jalan
satu jalan yang sudah lama dilalui
ke arah satu kawasan

lencongnya tajam
simpangnya tiada
bengkang bengkok
bakal ditempuhnya

onaknya tidak terkira
penuh dengan bara kehinaan
dijelek, dibenci, dipermainkan
laksana tiada pakaian maruah

cahaya ke jalan lurus semakin malap
pelita keimanan semakin habis minyak amalannya
apakah masih sempat pelita itu menyuluh jalan mendatang
hanya ihsan dari-Nya menjadi taruhan

selurus manapun jalan mendatang
pasti akan malap
di kemudian hari.

bara api sudah pasti menjadi destinasi
walaupun tidak diminta
syurga itu masih jauh di sana
berada di simpang yang lain

berpegang kepada tali ketaqwaan
yang semakin kecil
disitulah peluang untuknya
mengintai pintu syurga

The glass wall

It's a wall
that is growing with me
when I was still in the womb

It grows and grows
until now
the wall is getting higher
with full of colors
yellow, green, purple, pink, red, orange, blue
and BLACK

I see the black color
covering the top of my wall
with some yellow and other colors

And the wall keep growing and growing
but it is still black
and black
covering me
sink me into the color

I tried to splash the yellow, the green and the blue
to my wall
yet the black is still there
I gave up
I gave up
I gave up

I want to crash the wall
I want to crash the wall
I want to crash the wall

Some of the broken glasses are still there
I don't think I'll take them with me
Some of them are still
If I take them I'll hurt
So I decide not to take all of them

Some of them are the best memories
but if I cant reach them
what should I do?
Some of them are my pretty loves
but they are broken and scattered
what should I do?

So let me let go this life
I create a new wall
with colors and arts
drawing the curves
with loves and smiles
leaving behind all the saddest past

I left this life with no regret
as I want to find a new breath
away from hatred and evil threat

I still look at the old wall
I don't think I have a gut to forget them all
Broken and left alone

I'm still looking at it
Yes, I'm still looking at it
It's just the time to decide
when I'm going to forget it

leaving it there
ABANDONED.