Khilafku

Maafkan diri ini
yang penuh kekhilafan
yang tidak sempurna

ku akui silapku
menjadi boneka nafsu amarah
menjemput derita
dalam hidupmu

Siapalah diriku untuk
menerima kasih agungmu

kemaafanmu kunantikan
hanya itu sahaja
cukup buat diriku
terlepas dari
belenggu kesalahan

khilafku maha agung tidak terampun
ditarik ke lembah kehinaan
penuh lumpur dosa

kutidak mahu kau ditarik bersama
biarlah kulihatmu dari jauh
cukuplah mimpi menjadi mimpi

tapi takdir itu pandai bermain
semakin cuba kulari
semakin dekat ia mendatang

ku bukan sekuat yang kau sangka
senjataku semakin tumpul
aku semakin lemah

ku rela lepaskanmu
kerana tidak mahu
kau menanggung derita

lewat, sesal
khilafku membenarkan
semua ini berlaku
derita itu jatuh padamu
dan aku
menanggung sengsara

kiranya dirimu mendiam diri
bunuhlah aku sekarang
hentikan derita ini
buat selama-lamanya

Hawa

Kejadianmu itu keajaiban
peneman Adam yang sunyi
penenang Adam yang resah
Pelengkap hidup Adam

Laksana mawar liar
di belantara
cantik dipandang
bahaya dipegang

sesekali tergelincir
dari roda kewarasan
pintalah petunjuk
dari Adammu
agar dirimu tidak terus tersesat
tanpa cahaya kebenaran

Janganlah kau nyalakan api kemarahan
daripada bara cemburu
membakar hidupmu
begitu sahaja

Jalinkan tali kepercayaanmu
peganglah ia kepada Adam
yang taat pada ILAHI
yang membawa kebenaran
yang berlembut padamu
yang percaya padamu
yang ikhlas mahukanmu
yang setia padamu
yang ceria di depanmu

sesungguhnya
Adam ini adalah pemilikmu
yang benar

Lelaki

Dicipta Ilahi
untuk memimpin
memberi panduan
kepada yang salah

kau hargai Hawa
yang penuh emosi
yang hilang pertimbangan
yang pernah menghilangkan resahmu
yang pernah membuatmu tersenyum

Akal itu senjatamu
Rasional itu perisaimu

berilah panduan pada Hawa
Kira dia tersalah langkah
melihat jalan kehidupan
melihat kejujuranmu

kerana Hawa itu lemah
rapuh di dalam
untuk melawan
kabus cemburu

Ikhlasmu setulus anbia
Sabarmu setinggi langit
Kasihmu seluas lautan
Marahmu semerah bara
Kemaafanmu itu satu rahmat

Rindu Si Pendosa

Masih terdapat manik tasbih
yang tersimpan jauh
di sudut hatinya

Sayu hati menangis duka
melukis catan sesal
pada kanvas sanubari

menghampar kembali
lembaran hitam
yang membelenggunya

sesekali menjeling
selendang putih
yang pernah menemaninya

Itu sejarah lama

yang membawa dia
ke Rumah Suci

mendendangkan pujian
pada Ilahi

memegang Kitab
yang tiada diragui

sembah sujud
itu yang dipatuhi

Selendang putih itulah
yang menemani
diri yang hina
yang cintakan duniawi

rindunya pada selendang putih
serindu pada kematian
agar jasad perosak
hukum-Nya
berhenti

Dicuba capai
selendang itu
semakin dicapai
semakin sukar
semakin jauh

kudrat insan ini
tidak sekental
pejuang syahid
tidak setabah
para syahadah

hanya mampu
menagih simpati
dari Yang Maha Kuasa

Ambo oghe kelate! xcaye ke?

Nok ghoyak sedih, pon ado
nok ghoyak suko, pon ado
ambo meme maghi kelate weh....

Mek weh....
kawe ni oghe kelate
dudok kolo kerae aka krai
asal maghi dari kelate
mokpok pon kelate

alik ayoh oghe kappong Batu Lado
Mok dudok Darrak aka Kappong Tengoh
Alik2 jupo kat Guchil
buleh anok tujoh
ambo hok bongsu skali

Mek weh...
Kawe dudok skoloh Klate
Yak kecik
tubek klate pon gih KL
duo tigo haghi jah
tu pon kecek klate

dae panda sikit
ngaji jauh la siket
Kolo Lipih Buke jauh mano
oghe lipih jah kecek luar
skoloh kawe budok cikgu kalte ganu
tigo tahun dudok situ
oghe Kolupo pon buleh kecek klate
kawe pon banggo jadi anok klate~

Cek mek weh~
buleh result molek kak kawe suruh pindoh klate
lagi dekat lagi molek
duduk la ngaji kat 'Kale Chepo nuh
Kecek Klate jugok
capur BI sikit2...


Cik adik comel lote,
Ambo buke maghi dari siye,
Dok golok pon tok rhajin,
guano kawe nok kecek klate.
Yak dulu ni la caro kecek klate
takdok uboh2

Buleh pulok nok ghoyak kito ni
dudok KL
jauh lagi
kecek luar jah sedak
kecek kelate pon sedak jugok

Kawe Anok Kelate, Mek kak weh
Dudok kelate yak dulu lagi
Oghe tebolah sikit muloh mok ghoyak yak dulu lagi
Buat kejo tok molek mano
bab kecek no 1
kawe toksir kecek lebih
trimo la kawe ni
ANOK KELATE!

New things? I'm traditional....

Some people always keep new thing with them. Anything new, they will chase for it. No matter how expensive it is, how hard it is to get it. Me? I'm just a simple guy, not so demanding and satisfied with what I have (except money :P ). Gadgets, IT stuff, bla3, That does not come in my line when I talk around. Why? May be I was brought up in an environment which taught me to satisfy what I have, except money and not so technology life.

Nowadays, throw a city boy/girl to a village, a real village, with no Internet, no TV, no air-conditioner, no water heater, they will tell you that their time there was a total disaster! I'm not a real city boy. Yeah, I live near to the city/town but we are not rich and we usually keep busy with our business at the market.

Talking about mobile phone, our family only had one mobile phone when everybody should get one. My elder brother got his first mobile phone when he went to his college. Us? My parents got one, and our sibling got one when we got into college. if not, no phone!
Honestly I was a little bit envied with some of my friends who got phones. However, once I used to that life, I have no regret. I felt safer, more free but sometimes I need to call my parents too... :P

Then people talk about new design of phones. Leaves, soap, N16, whatever else. I was too 'noob' to know about that so that is my reason why I stick to a phone until it cannot be used anymore. Computer? Games? Those things are totally out of my line. I never really enjoy playing games, i mean computer games or Xbox, Cube, PSP as we are not a rich family. Plus, a TV with only 3 channels and a radio in our house is enough to entertain us. Well, we started to changed to Astro when my father wanted to watch sports.. LOL...

Once I stepped into this university, I never thought the technology world is so wide, so complex and so exciting. Badly, I'm a traditional person, slow learner but once I used the product, I'll stick to it...

But don't worry, show me the latest technology the latest gadget you have, I might interested to know about it someday... someday...hahaha... :P

Holiday? Maybe....

The things come again!

It's a habit but i don't do it everyday but every semester break. What is the habit?

CUTTING DOWN THE HOLIDAY!

Remember every semester in my life in this university? I never have a complete holiday during semester break. The longest holiday I ever experienced is only one month and that holiday almost make me die of doing nothing. This semester holiday, the habit come again and I think this is the SHORTEST holiday break I ever have in my life in UTP.

I told everyone that I'm not gonna go home this semester, even I didn't go OBS (Outward Bound School?) program, I still have no holiday. I talk to my friend via Gtalk and she said:

"Pity la u..."

Aiyo, amoi a.... sad la... but still not so sad because I have things to do. So, the sad thing is not a big issue... I have another important thing to worry... haha...

Currently finishing my PHP workshop, 7 June-25June, continue with my SIFE Training, 20 June-10July, and SIFE National, 11 July-13 July 2010.

My sis asked me to go back to our hometown. Once I gave my schedule, she said:

"You are sooooo Busy!"

Well, it's my life and if I don't cut my holiday, what I suppose to do then?

Tasik Silam

jangan bawa aku ke tasik silam
kerana itu airmataku yang pernah hilang

jangan bawaku ke pohon harapan
kerana aku sudah tidak dapat merasa manis buahnya

jangan bawaku ke penjara kekeliruan
kerana diriku bukan tahanan perasaan

Kusembah maaf mohon keampunan
walaupun kutahu kau tetap berkeras

semakin ku tinggalkan bayangmu
semakin kuat ia mendatang

tidak ku pinta cintamu padaku
kerana siapa aku untuk menerimanya

khabarkan kemaafanmu
bagaimanapun caranya

kerana hidupku ini
mampu bertahan sampai di sini sahaja

Andai diriku insan yang hina
mahu sahaja hilang di dunia

Andai diriku satu malapetaka
Lupakan aku buat selama-lamanya

Cakap xsrupa bikin

Nak marah xnk marah nk marah xnk marah......

dilema giler....

nak cakap kat orang lain, baik ingatkan diri kita dulu

Wallahualam

LAST DAY OF JANUARY 2010 SEMESTER

~this semester exam schedule is a bit cute~

Today is the last day I have my semester as 2nd year 1st sem student. yesterday was my last paper and I found it quite easy, not so tough and I managed to finished it half an hour before the paper period is over. i rushed to finished it but for me, i don't care what might happen after this. the most important I have finished my paper.

It's kinda demotivated when your paper is among the last paper during the exam. Plus it is the last day and everyone are packing their stuffs or whatever not.. (tiru miss sati) and you are not that good in that kind of field. It's like a curse, whenever it come to java, everything goes wrong. I was confused with the scenario of my life. why ah? still no answer for it and i was craving to find answers for it... huhu...

By the way, the paper is over, my holiday is being cut short into 3 days only because i have PHP Workshop and I assume it is tough but this is the only programming part which i think i am willing to handle instead of java and other programming language.... T_T

I'm gonna enjoy the holiday and to all of you,
HAPPY HOLIDAY
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