Well it's hurt... a bit. And I'm glad.

Whenever I see a person I care the most once in my life, I felt a bit hurt with the happiness which I don't have it together with the person. I'm a loner. Yes, whatever you want call me. I'm not a person who is attached to a group in my life. pretty bad, huh?
Talking about hurt, my heart starts to heal a bit from the unknown-feeling-hurt-disease which make me feel more glad with the situation.

Oh, crap! This holiday is meaningless for me. I need something to feed my life!!!!!!!

Thinking again, I am in miserable states where I need to get my life normal. Wait. Do I have a normal life? May be. but I'm not sure whether I ever have a normal life 'cause it has been a long time I forgot when is my normal life. When having friends around or parents? this whole life is turning me crazy.

Soul mate? I think I'm gonna put this thing OUT from my mind first. Geez, pretty bad, huh? Well, I don't think i can be in a relationship for this time. Not that I cannot give my commitment, it's more like I shouldn't be in a relationship. Several cases I encountered in my life taught me love is tough if you don't have trust. Some people don't trust me anymore. If a person cannot trust me, how can I let anyone to trust me since I'm not trustworthy? I better find an alien area where no one know me and I can start a new life. When is the time? Just wait and see me disappear. On that time, I mean to be alone.

Thanks for spending your time to listen to my babbling tonight. Hope you will be blessed with your kindess to lend some of your time to read my crap.

It's a crap!

Merry Christmas!!!!

Dear Jill, Joyce, Stephanie and David and all my Christian friends,

Merry Christmas!!!!

And to all my friends,

Happy holiday!!!!

Devils

Every step I take
you follow
Every thought I made
you deviate

You are my greatest fan
take my move from end to end

My eyes glare
My mind in flare
I'm no longer insane

You tie your strings on my body
You blend my brain to crazy
Let away from everybody

Why?
Why do you come to me?

Why?
Why this happen to me?

I was in pain and sorrow
Never want even to know
Hope there still day tomorrow
Please let me go from this hollow

You are the one
who ruin my life
Let me free from your sight!!!!!

Quotes: Human

"People don't only see you as a person, but as a human too."

It's Monsoon, Baby!

Hi there!
Gosh! It has been a week. AGAIN! Thank God I'd bought a broad band service. Seriously, I really need the Internet. Not for entertainment only, but for my work. But of course most of the time i used it for entertainment. Just Facebook and blogging. not that many. May be i take a look on Glee newest episodes, looking for a new attractive videos from the cast.
It's monsoon season in Terengganu. It was raining heavily today, starting from yesterday. our house has no proper drainage. Thus our drain is filled with water, and MOSQUITOs. They were like an army of mosquito and a bit stupid cause i can grab them with bare hand. and they are big too. Aedes is common here. Some places around Paka, Kerteh, Kijal and Kemasik can't be passed by cars. the road were flooded with waters.Some of our friends were stranded and they got a holiday! It's not fair! Muahahahaha... Well, it's not my luck to be there. Work must go on.
Internship? My training? It was awesome. but sometimes I felt useless as I had not much knowledge on the field I am pursuing right now. Taking IT while practicing HSE. It's pretty tough huh? What I'd learnt from previous week is, I need to be more proactive, more participating and ask more questions if I don't understand. Plus, I need to think ahead. I hope I can do much better this week. I have a task to complete a video. 5-8 minutes video. Hurm, I was not that into video even though it is interesting. Let me see through the story board. I have been looking at my laptop for almost 5 hours with Microsoft powerpoint, picture manager, adobe photoshop and paint. I was sick today!

Hatred. I am sick of my weakness to hate people. I have been living with hatred for more than one year. I know I did a big mistake. May be i still don't learn my lesson. I hope I can fully forget the past and start with a new leaf. I don't mind if the sweetness that we have today is a lie, because I rather live my life with lies rather than crying for my regret. It seems we heard about this before huh? Even though we explicitly seen have no problem, we are still scarred with our past. I hate to admit it and now I have to.

May be this time I really need to let it go.

A week of working life

Hi there! It has been a week I didn't update my blog. pretty busy. and no Internet too.. I almost die of not having Internet.
Well, regarding the title, It's not really a week. Just a few days of working time. I'm in PETLIN (M) SDN BHD. About my work, let keep it a secret. I just don't like to mention my work here. May be I'll talk bout my life in Paka, Terengganu.

Just one thing I'm sure.

God, I don't know I should thank You or doubt You. Most of my wishes turned completely different. Your Plan is always unexpected. Help me to go through this 10 months with no problem.
The more you tried to run away, the more it come closer to you.
To what extend this statement is valid in my life? I leave everything to You.

Off to Kerteh, Terengganu

It's 5:07pm in Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS, Tronoh, Perak.
Gonna take my bus at Sri Iskandar bus station to Paka, Kerteh, Terengganu for my internship at PETLIN (M) SDN BHD .
My next coming posts will come from Terengganu.
See you there!

"Na Na Na Na Na, Ganu Kitte~"

200th post: Till we meet again, Pal!

I have completed my last final examination today. What a relief.

6 papers, three weeks, two days before my depart to Kerteh and one day to pack things up.

I had lots of fun this semester. Although I went through all things almost by myself alone, I did enjoy the time we had together. I started talking to my juniors which end to be my friends. Especially with my friends, and friends of my friends, knowing new people yet can't remember their names. :P

A lot of things happened this semester. Starting from SIFE, with my beloved BEEPers, Ain, Faris, Shidi, Fari..Na... haha... Tasnim, and Petra. Talking and gossiping with the makciks, Secured CIMB fund but till now we don't get the grant.. haha.. went to KEMAS, dizzy dizzy with shidi at KEMAS during the makcik's first training, Went to Shabu-Shabu steamboat restaurant. Having a good time eating and talking for three hours there. I'm sure the owner of the restaurant impressed with us. SIFE never make my day empty. Always have meeting with Mr Am.

SIFErs, they never disappoint me. Any chance, I would join the events or any invitation. I'm open for invitation. "Mapley" is a must. Almost met with accident when we went to Anep's sister wedding. Joined CSR team members to a two-game bowling outing with shouts and cheers. most of the time shouting. Everyone looked at us like we never play bowling before. A blast Raya celebration even though my "Baju Raya" I bought it three years ago. SIFE looks like a part of my life in UTP. Can I survive without it?

SIFErs.. they're ROCK!

My friends? They are the coolest, the best one. there's lot of things about them. Especially my new gossip-mate, Farahin. We shared laugh and tears together, gossiping together, dinner together, updating news of course during the dinner, accidentally assist me in Chef Gala with Mira Gaga, and now we have our own way to go. Good luck for your internship, girl!

Chef Gala 2010.. nice one girls~

My raya with my family is kinda bad, kinda good too. what would you say about it? During Aidilfitri, it was just me and my sis, Dura celebrated our first day of Raya. Then by brother, Fikry came back on the second day. The third day of Aidilfitri, we have our cousin engagement, Siti Badariah with her fiancee, Syuk. Having steamboat, celebrating my Mami's birthday. But this year, we celebrated Raya Aidil Adha at KL. not at Kelantan, but better because me, Abe, Dura, Farah and Pendi can celebrate the raya. Still, we went to Cekcik's house and Kak Ning's house. Who said raya never be fun in KL? Let us keep the emotional part aside. Appreciate the laughter we have.

My coursemate, ICT, and our beloved friends of BIS, we are on our own way now. Choosing our own minor, later on the class will become smaller and smaller. I plan to take Software engineering for my major and my minor for my study here is Corporate Management. Observing this university demands performance of students, I choose corporate management as my minor because my ability is toward reading stuffs, not numbers. I have to forget my teacher's advise to choose Corporate Finance as this field are demanded by most companies. But what can I do, Miss Nini? I'm not that capable to play with numbers. I still can cope with some numbers, when it come to formulas, equations, some laws, theories, I don't think I can play with numbers. My vision will be blurred and my head will get dizzy. So if you haven't choose your minor, better start thinking now.

BIS Jan08.... Happy internship guys~

Internship really drove me crazy. I had to decline an offer to Miri, went for an interview with KPMG, but failed it. Looking for some placements around KL, finally decided to go to Kerteh. Once I got the house, confirm with my housemate-to-be, Khazanah called me for internship interview. Dealing with new people for new house to rent, looking for one house to another, do not know where is Paka is, when are we going. I can't really focus this semester because of this internship matter. Sometimes I regret I declined the interview from Khazanah. May be I should try to get an interview with the company for my job. Hopefully I can get a job there. Who knows?

In two day more, I'm off to Kerteh. on 5th December, I'm gonna have my first day of internship. Some of you are no longer in UTP or we might not seeing each other tomorrow or the day after it. Whoever you are, wherever you are, I wish you good luck for your studies, internship, or working. UTPians, we gonna meet again in the next 10 months. To all SIFErs, I'll see you in the next 7 months during SIFE Malaysia National Exposition 2010. Better make it the best one. Strive for it. 'till we we meet again, Pal!

*let see if I can update my blog from my office then. Bye~

Resepi: Kuah putih Laksa/Laksam Kelantan

tipikal laksam yang selalu makan~

Bahan-bahan:

• 3 potong ikan tenggiri
• 4 cawan santan/ dari 3 biji kelapa
• 9 biji bawang merah
• 3 sudu teh lada hitam
• 2 biji limau
• garam secukup rasa

Cara-cara:

1. Siang ikan. Basuh dan kukus selama 2 minit. buang tulang ikan.
2. Blend ikan dengan bawang merah dan sedikit santan.
3. masukkan bahan yang sudah dikisar ke dalam periuk bersama santan, lada hitam, asam limau. Tambahkan garam sedikit untuk perasa.
4. masak dengan api kecil sehingga mendidih. Jika terlebih masak, santan akan pecah minyak.
5. sedia untuk dimakan bersama laksa/laksam.

ni la laksam~

Resepi: Nasi Dagang

image source here

Bahan-bahan:
3kg beras nasi dagang
1 cawan santan pekat
2 cawan santan
7cm halia
3 sudu teh halba
2 sudu teh gula
3 sudu teh garam

Cara-cara:
1. Basuh dan rendamkan beras selama 5 jam sebelum dimasak
2. Potong bawang merah dan halia
3. Rendam halba dalam air, toskan.

4. Basuh dan toskan beras.
5. masak air dalam pengukus sehingga berwap. Letakkan beras di atas pengukus. Kukus sehingga beras 3/4 masak. Pindahkan ke dalam besen.
6. masukkan 2 cawan santan, kacau sehingga sebati, pastikan beras nampak berkilau. Tambah air jika perlu. Letakkan beras pada pengukus dan kukus sehingga masak.
7. Tutup api pengukus. masukkan nasi ke dalam besen.
8. masukkan santan pekat, halba, halia bawang merah, garam dan gula. Kacau sehingga sebati.
9. tutup nasi dengan daun pisang dan biarkan seketika untuk dihidang.


kredit to buku resepi keluarga Dato Nik Ahmed Kamil. ^^v

Post malas sebab nak study.

this morning went to Ayer Tawar for driving class. Practise make worse. itu yang dapat dicakapkan buat masa nie. Makin teruk ada lah.

Balik got meeting dengan Mr Am. Ain ajak teman pergi jumpa mr Am. Tapi masa pergi tadi, ain takde pon. Petra dgn Shidi je pergi. Apakah?

Tomorrow I will have Business& Cyber Law final exam Paper. In the morning. and after that I need to rush to Ayer tawar for JPJ test. Hope everything is ok. Wish me luck all of you!!!

Just have our last dinner for this semester with my dear friend, Farah. Gossiping is the main topic. What else? owh, I forgot to buy eggs for my cake. so there will be no cake tomorrow. Sorry Mak cik~~ ke nak buat butir nangka? at least sume brg dah ada. Bg kat dak2 nie pg esok? hurm.. that sounds ok kot.... hahahaha....

Almost solved

Just keep staring,


I won't care anymore.

Just keep staring.

You and I,
NOTHING!

Once broken

I'm not in a mood of studying. I'm broken tonight. my mood suddenly goes down until I feel stress about it. But I shouldn't

TIRED!

I AM TOO ANGRY UNTIL I CANNOT STAND TO CRY IN MY BED.

Problem

I think I have solved this problem.
But it breaks my heart apart.
AGAIN!


Am I too bad to be forgiven?

Irony: The Sunny Rain

It was raining outside, under a blazing sun.

Quotes: Annoying

"Before we put a person as annoying, put ourselves first in the place."

Of Laughter and Tears

Come!
Let us live up our life
Fill it with laughter and tears
Marching upon our ways

Listen!
to the rhythm of the nature
give us a new adventure
it something worth for you to capture

It's our LIFE!
Full of laughter and tears
Never put in any fear
'cause it will never make you any near
to the life you desire

Just let the past to cry
and see the future smiles

you never know what will come
and if you can handle it with the vile

Just keep it on until we die
Let Him guide us with His Light
So just go on and go on your life!
It's the only thing we can have
to have a life!

It's our LIFE!
Full of laughter and tears
Never put in any fear
'cause it will never make you any near
to the life you desire

There's no one control you
you are now only you
to decide is up to you
It's only you.....

the 190th post

Quotes: Disturbing

"It is disturbing when I worry about you but you never think about me."

Tolerance: Am I losing it?

This morning, I woke up with curse and hatred. It was damn cold morning and it's my fault to not using my blanket. But my mind keep cursing and cursing. After a few hours, I looked back. Why should I curse and hate in early morning? Since when I suddenly become so intolerance and hating people easily? But I cannot express my hatred. Do I need to have have one?

I think I'm losing my tolerance nowadays.
I need to find myself.

Quotes: Baik Jahat

"Bukan senang nak jadi baik. Bukan susah nak jadi Jahat"

Borak-Borak: Dilema Pelajar

baru habis short meeting dgn kawan. Maybe football match antara Malaysia n Iran dah habis kot. Last skali dapat tengok, Iran dah score 2 gol. Shilako! Sejak study dengan Gowe, dah addict tengok bola. Apakah? hahaha... ok la. kita borak-borak pasal tajuk Dilema Pelajar yang saya post semalam.

"Bila nak exam baru la nak terhegeh-hegeh baca Quran, solat tahajud, solat hajat apa. Kalau tak, tak buat pun."

Pelajar la kan. Biasa la. bila nak exam baru nak gaduh-gaduh nak ingat Tuhan. Sebelum tu? ada nak ingat?
Sebagai seorang Muslim, kita mestilah ingat sentiasa pada Tuhan. Namun, kita sebagai manusia sering kali terlupa. Begitulah insan. Insan bermaksud orang yang selalu lupa. Kita belajar, kita hidup, mestilah bergantung pada Tuhan. Tiada makhluk lain yang patut kita beri pergantungan yang mutlak (ultimate dependance) melainkan Allah SWT.
Sekiranya ada statement seperti ini dikatakan oleh orang lain, atau timbul dari diri sendiri, janganlah ia menjadi satu halangan pada diri kita. Kadang kala, kita terlalu merendah diri sampai perkara yang dipuji Allah pun kita malu nak lakukan. Kita mestilah sedar bahawa, apa-apa perkara atau perbuatan yang dipuji Allah itu merupaka perbuatan yang baik dilakukan. Tidak kiralah orang lain memandang serong bila kita mahu berubah kerana manusia itu tidak sempurna sifatnya. Kita boleh berubah sikit demi sedikit. Perlahan-lahan, kita belajar hikmah di sebalik perintah-Nya.
Bila kita nak baca Quran, nak solat hajat, tahajud dan sebagainya, lakukanlah. Jangan difikirkan apa-apa yang dikatakan oleh orang lain. Biarpun kita baru mula buat semua itu menjelang musim exam sahaja, janganlah kita malu. Sambil-sambil kita berdoa pada Allah agar habit ini menjadi habit kita setiap hari. Sekiranya kita sudah usaha untuk mengekalkan habit yang baik ini, tetapi kita tetap tidak dapat mengekalkannya, janganlag bimbang. Kita sudah berusaha sedaya upaya untuk menjadikan habit ini satu habit yang kita akan lakukan. Namun, mungkin kita masih belum kuat imannya untuk beramal secara berterusan.
Tapi, janganlah kita tinggal terus habit yang baik ini. kita mestilah sentiasa berazam menjadikan perkara ini sebagai sesuatu yang lazim. Insya Allah, kita akan dapat menjadikan habit yang baik ini sebagai sesuatu yang memberi manfaat kepada kita di Akhirat kelak.

Wallahualam.

Dilema Pelajar

"Bila nak exam baru la nak terhegeh-hegeh baca Quran, solat tahajud, solat hajat apa. Kalau tak tak buat pun."

Korang rasa adil tak statement atas nie? Nanti esok kita cerita pasal mende nie. Okeh?

Quotes: Somebody

"IF you see somebody like someone you loved, you better check yourself again, honey. You might not in love with him/her anymore."

Quotes: Mark

"If you don't want to see me again in your subject, give me good mark."

Twilight versi Raymond

Alkisah aq merajuk dgn seseorang la kat tempat aku nie. So aku pon melarikan diri dan menyorok di bawah lori. ada tempat nak sembunyi. Lepas aku masuk, ada la sorang lagi mamat nie yang masuk bawah lori jugak. Lori tu pun bergerak... gerak nyer gerak, aku amik phone aku dari poket kiri. Ala baru 25 minit merajuk. Tapi aku ni nak gi mana? then tiba2 kami tiba di satu tempat yang bersalji. then aku nampak orang dari lori tu cam supply barang kat tempat tu. tempat tu boleh kata zoo la. sebab aku nampak ada sekor panda kat sana. Ada sorang mamat yg bawak lori ni cakap2 dgn penjaga zoo. penjaga zoo tu cakap kitorang kat banting. Mamat tu cam taktaw sgt tempat2 kat malaysia. dia duduk kat blakang lori, sambil mencangkung. Aku dah takut dah masa tu. Dia pun cam tanya ala2 bermonolog sendirian.
"Kat mana ek Banting nie?"
Sebagai pelarian bawah lori, aku buat bodo je la kan.. haha... tetiba je ada la sekor singa jantan mana entah datnag dari depan lori. then dia nampak aku kat bawah lori, tgh duduk2 kan. Singa tu datnag dekat dan dekat. Aku dah cuak dah. apa la nak jadi. Jangan ko baham aku sudah la. Penjaga zoo tu perasan aku. Dia pijak ekor singa tu. terus singa tu stop. Kami pun meneruskan perjalanan seperti biasa. Then baru la aku jwb dlm hati soklan mamat atas lori tadi.
"Banting kat selangor la wei~"
Tup tup, kitorang dah masuk KL. Tengah turun bukit. Aku dapat vision ada kemalangan yg akan berlaku. Dua kereta hitam akan bertembung dan yang aku pasti lagi, kemalangan nie merupakan yang dirancang. Aku pun cuba la meloloskan diri. then tiba-tiba je rasa opening lori tu dgn jalan dah kecik. Baru aku sedar lori tu dah jadi Kereta hitam yang akan terlibat dalam kemalangan.
Aku berjaya meloloskan diri. begitu jugak mamat yang duduk bwh lori skali dgn aku tadi. Lori yang kini menjadi kereta hitam brek secara mengejut sebab nampak orang keluar dr bawah keta diorng. So aku terpelanting and kereta hitam tu betul2 stop depan aku. Ada empat orang kat dalam kereta tu. 2 lelaki 2 perempuan. Satu pompuan rambut pendek. yg alin rambung panjang. Malangnya lelaki tu aku tak ingat muka diorang. Kami ditangkap oleh 4 orang nie dan dibawa ke satu tempat.
Nampak2 dah dalam satu ruang tamu. Mamat tadi kena gigit kat sorang nie. Vampire rupanye yang culik kitorng. Selepas vampire 1 satu nie mengigit mamat tu dia dimasukkan ke dalam satu bilik, aku dah takut la. mati la kena gigit kat vampire nie.. last2 dia bawak aku ke beranda bangunan tu. Dia tunjuk ada la dua tiga orang manusia dok tgh buat apa ntah and ada lagi kat atas bangunan, tunjuk signal "GOOD"
Entah la camne tiba2 je ada berita yang vampire jahat nak serang vampire yg ada dgn aku sekarang nie. Aku dah takut dah. Vampire2 nie semua terima je battle nie. aku dah takut. Aku tgok kat tempat diorang bertarung. tempat lapang, tapi tempat lapang tu dikelilingi oleh bangunan la. so diorang gaduh kat sini kot.
Masa tengok kat tingkap tu, aku dah cuak. then tiba2 je rasa ada tangan pegang leher aku. tangan tu hitam. baru la aku perasan, sebelah bilik mamat yg kena gigit tu ada satu bulik yg ditutup dgn gril. Aku dah cuak. tangna tu cam nak tarik aku masuk bilik tu. Aku tak nak la kan. dengna naluri ke-tak-mahu-an, gril yg berubah menjadi tangna tu dia tutup aku dan aku dapat tengok diri aku dgn gril tu menjadi dua orang budak kecik. then jadi figure ibu dengan baby and last skali aku dapat vision yang pelik2. Baru la dapat lepas dari gril tu. bagai dia tahu aku tak nak masuk bilik tu.
Aku terkejut sebab mamat yang kena gigit tu dah jadi vampire. muka dia dah berubah. muka cam pelakon Kabuki, rambut cam Jiraiya Naruto and dia sangnat dahagakan pertarungan. Aku cakap tempat nie bahaya. Dia makin suka. then dia lompat keluar dari tingkap untuk berlawan. PArt tu aku tak concern.
Aku toleh kiri. Ada dua orang manusia kat bilik tu. sorang mamat pakai sut bartender cam omputeh yang ikat rambut dia, sorang lagi minah dalam umur 30++, rambut pendek, ikat jugak. Muka cam condolezza Rice. Dia pakai baju batik 1Malaysia kot. Siap tulis ROSMAH dengan ROS melintang n MAH tu turun bawah kat bahagian kiri baju. Aku kenal la minah tu. tiba2 aq boleh teringat yang Rosmah pernah datang ke tempat aku tuk buat survey. entah survey apa entah. then minah ni ada la skali. then masa Rosmah datang kat tempat ku tu, dia unfortunately experience something yg memalukan. aku dah lupa apa mende ntah. tapi memalukan la.. public plak tu. besar kemaluannye... hahaha... then bual2 dengan minah tu. Nama dia El. Dia sebenarnya tak suka rosmah tu. Ikut pun sekadar nak hidup je la.. bukan dia suka pun rosmah tu. Sempat pulak gosip2 kan.
Aku pun cakap la tempat nie tak selamat. So aku, El n mamat yg pakai sut bartender tu lari masuk kereta. mamat tu bawak keta. El kat depan, aku kat belakang. then aku dapat vision yang kereta yg kitorang naik tu akan dikepung oleh 2 lori kain. diorang akan hampar kain depan n belakang kereta kitorang. Aku toleh belakang. Sah! ada satu lori kain tgh kejar kitorang guna gear reverse kot! Aku jerit la kat driver yg kita akan kemalangan skali lg n kemalangna ni dirancang. Pastu lori kain tu dah dekat dengan kitorang. Aku harap mamat vampire boleh datang selamatkan aku. Lori kain dah makiin dekat. keadaan dah semakin genting.
Last2 aku bangun dari tidur. Dah pukul 7:09 malam. tu la tido lepas asar lagi. kan dah mimpi pelik2. Nasib baik aku tak mimpi jadi Bella dalam twilight tu. kang tak pasal2 ada cium2 dengan Edward.. hahaha....

Kalo aku jadi Bella dalam mimpi aku, tak ke menangis semua pompuan nanti? Nasib baik aku tak taw watak aku dalam mimpi tu apa.

Quote: Perasan

"Jangan mudah perasan. Nanti diri sendiri yang malu."

Kejam

Aku insan yang kejam
Kejam pada dirimu
kejam pada diriku
kejam kepada yang lain

Aku insan yang kejam
yang putus asa meminta maaf
yang putus asa mengharap belas kasihan
yang putus asa terhadap keikhlasanmu

Aku insan yang kejam
membiarkan dirimu diam membisu
membiarkan diriku diam membisu
saling pandang bak angin berlalu
tidak wujud dalam hidup kita

Aku insan yang kejam
yang sudah celaru akan fikiranku
yang sudah celaru akan emosiku
yang sudah celaru akan rasionalku
mencari secebis ihsan
mencari sepatah kata
menanti tegurmu
menanti ketawamu
menanti dirimu

sampai bila kita terus
berlaku kejam menikam hati
menyulam kebencian
menyemai ego
memetik buah larangan?

Aku insan yang kejam
kejam padamu, padaku
kejam pada segalanya

GLEE- Awesome Teenage Dream

Awesome Teenage dream by boys in GLEE.

Quote: Hate/Love

"You don't need hate if you don't love"

URGENT!!!

URGENT! Looking for housemate to be (MALE ONLY) during internship in Terengganu, internship area- paka/kerteh. Semi-D, RM600/month, 10 min from Kerteh Port, 20 min from PMO Complex, 20 min from Mesra Mall, the house is at Paka. Deposit 3 months (which means RM1800) with an agreement. I just need 4-6 people who wants to stay there from the beginning of internship until the end of it. Please reply ASAP in 3 days. Effective until 11/11/2010

Rayo Haji 2010 - Demo Sambut mano?

Serabut weh. Serabut palohotok nok mikir.
Mulo-mulo nok sambut rayo haji kat Kolo Kerey
Pahtu nok sambut KL la pulok...
Ho la... soghe2 duduk KL gak. Semeleh lembu kat KL la ..
tahun ni kito rayo haji kt KL
Sene crito.
Mudoh baso.

PAYOH!

Geography Club by Brent Hartinger

I bought this book because I thought it is about a Geography club. I was wrong but yes, it is a story about building a club but, there is another story about this club. I warn those people who want to read this book to be open minded because it has something related to sexuality. Or should i say a journey of a boy in search of his true sexuality? Hint; LGBT. Happy reading!

Sunset Express by Robert Crais.

An interesting detective novel by Robert Crais. I would say this novel is kinda complicated yet explained in a good narration of Elvis Cole. Try to hit this book. You may love it.

Isnin Setengah hari

Pagi-pagi dah bangun. biar terlajak pun. Tak nak breakfast, sebab nanti Gowe mesti ajak aku makan lepas nie. tekak sakit giler. berkahak.
Dah sembur2 perfume, tunggu Gowe kat cafe. Pergi block 2. nak buat demo lab wireless. I got a huntch yg Abang Ruslan takde hari nie. Pergi jugak.
Sampai lab, lab tutup. bilik Abang ruslan pun gelap. Hantar meseg kat abang ruslan. dia reply "Maaf saya cuti hari ni." Hurm.. dah sedih. Linda datang sebelum dpt reply meseg. Patah hati. Terus keluar pergi Taman Maju.
Sampai taman maju amik Asif, kawan Gowe, kami makan kat Bayan. Sakit tekak lagi. Hantar Linda balik v5. Pastu patah balik amik surat reply intern. Nak pergi Batu Gajah. Buka akaun Maybank tuk intern n terus hantar reply letter.
Samapi Batu Gajah, masuk Maybank, dengan suara ala-ala Rani Mukherjee tanya akak kaunter tu nak buka akaun. Akak tu cakap "Adik kena datang pukul 2 ptg nanti." Patah hati. Tengok jam. 1200 owh tgh hari. Kejap tolak 10 minit. Dah lunch ke? Laju je.. memang kalo kita kerja nanti kena buat macam nie ek? Datang lambat, lunch laju, masuk office lambat, balik laju. Ooo... cam nie...
Patah hati. Balik utp. kita jumpa balik Rabu nie. kalo ada masa la... kalo datang rabu nie takde jugak, memang aku pergi Ipoh buka akaun. Lahabau susah giler.

*tulisan dibuat tanpa consider apa dah dibuat hari i ni. So segala komplen adalah tidak relevan.

Study Week begin!!!!!

OK. Baru bangun. sebab tido pukul 730 pg td. nak g mandi. :P

Quote for today: Infatuation

"I never love you. It is just an infatuation.
How fool I am."

BEEPers and Shabu-Shabu

It's eat-until-your-stomach-burst time!

Last Thursday me n another 5 members of BEEP went to Shabu-shabu. guess what? this is the first time I went there. Lots of students from UTP spot this Shabu-Shabu steamboat as their favorite place to gather. Well, I agree that this place is awesome!

Initially, we planned to have ikan bakar around Lumut. However, none of us know the best place to have ikan bakar. Thus, we decided to go to Shabu-Shabu instead. Departed from UTP around 7:45pm, we went to the petrol station as the tank was almost empty. Having 6 people in the car, 4 of us at the back seat needed to sit in a small space. What a hell!! haha.. but we managed to remain at our seat during the journey.

There, at shabu-shabu, we took as much as we could. Anything from steamboat stuffs, BBQ things, ice creams and much more. we ate and ate and ate and ate for almost three hours. we arrived at the restaurant at 9pm and we finished about 11:30pm. haha... then, some of us still want to have another round. What kind of stomach they have? hahaha....

Well, that night was one of the best outing I had with BEEPers. After this I'm not gonna have this kind of chance in the next 10 months. Because I will have my internship later..huhu.. T_T gonna miss you guys.

Thanx to always-think-positive-Project manager, Ain Mansur, Mom-always-call-Asst Project Manager, Wan Petra, silent-and-blurred-yet-funny Tasnim, blurred-but-sometimes-informative Shidi, and new-and-fresh-busy-boy Faris Ashraf. Not to forget Mom-always-threat-me Farina who did not able to come to the party.
Thumbs up!

*pretty bad coz my camera was not functioning. all pictures were with faris.

I was speechless when I watch this video

This video made me speechless.

Jangan aniaya orang miskin.

Baru dapat tahu, ada peserta dalam projek kawan aku kena tipu. Dah la peserta tu miskin. lepas tu kena tipu pulak. Ingatkan orang yang kitorang jumpa nie baik, last2, pagar makan padi...

Manusia, suka sangat sikap tamak nie...

Subhanallah~

Busy Bee~

Last week and this week are my busy week. even though not so busy and crazy as last semester, I just need ONE subject that drives me crazy. Not like Britney Spears but to Hell. However, i still went to the class this morning and with my hardworking (wow~) effort finishing the report, I sighed that i still put my effort on something that I have no interest anymore.

We presented our project this evening. This is the first time I didn't feel excited about completing my project/subject. Lame, Da~~~ so we just finished the project as we need to complete it. As no mean as that. Sigh.

You know, I never feel this kind of disappointment before. Just one subject. It ruins everything. I can expect my result is not so good. But my friend, Zulothman said,

"My result is not everything. The most important is, I learn a lot from this subject."

Yeah, even though this subject is lame, but I do learn a lot from this subject.

Flu. Emotional unstable.

Flu is kiling me. When i am busy with project completion and assignment submission, flu comes like hell. this is among the worst flu I ever had.

i submit my assignment but I late to take my exam slip.

Currently having emotional unstable and lost interest to entertain people.

Do not do stupid things or ask question to me again. I'm currently annoy people. This may continue for two or three days.

You make shit to me, I make hell to you.
Beware.

*flu nie buat rasa nak terjun bangunan tinggi jah. ish~

Every man is equal

This is my words based on rationalization.

From my point of view, I respect all people as the same. Whoever they are, what they had done, as long they do not bring destruction to this world. I do make pre-assumption for a person I see before I meet them. However, I tell myself pre assumption is just an expectation from you to the person. The most important when meeting a person is how we value them as they are. We have to know why they behave in such manner or what is their great influence in their life.

Life is full of exploration. Human is the creature which is unique from each other. Even twins do have differences. I put myself in a neutral state where I cannot say a person is good or bad until they are proven. If they are good, appreciate them, if they are bad, we look why they are bad and help them to become good. Do not give hatred to them as they are also human who have feelings.

Always assume good things about a person. Never ever see a person is bad. Life will tell us whether he is good or not. Just take care of your life, do good deeds, avoid bad deeds, be nice to people and you will have your life to the fullest.

Quotes: Down

"If I feel down, I'll try to cheer myself."

Quotes: Forget

"Sometimes, we are too excited to in our battle until we forget what should we achieve in the battle"

LOST

I lost my pendrive with RED DEVIL.
I lost my 3Gig pendrive.
I just don't get the lesson of one subject.
I was pissed by the people
I need a break
I need a new horizon
I hope I can get a new one.

Wallahualam

A Glory for Red Warriors

Just finished watching a football match aka soccer match between Kelantan and Negeri Sembilan. Alhamdulillah, Kelantan team, The Red Warriors, won the match and become the champion of Piala Malaysia.

Congratulations!!!!!!!
2-1

May Allah bless our sportsmanship. Insya Allah.

Quotes: Taken

"I rather let my life being taken than suffering this pain."

"If you feel lonely, just remember you still have GOD with you.
Have faith."

Irony: Fat boy in a thin body

Scale	Current	Ideal	Comment
%Body Fat	17.2	14.9	burn more fat
Total Body water	60.6	60-65	drink more water
Muscle mass	50	60	Need to add some muscles
Physiquel rating	5	5,6,7	normal
Basal Metabolic rate	15.28	higher	essential to produce more energy
Metabolic age	18	younger, better	young
Bone mass	2.7kg	heavier, better	drink milk
Visceral fat rating	5	1-3	Danger, can cause heart attack

I have been waiting for a long time to publish this result.

I may die young.

Today's Quote: LIFE GAME

" THE MORE I TRIED TO RUN AWAY FROM IT, THE MORE IT COMES CLOSER TO ME."

Dengki - apa yang anda dapat?

Malam nie saya nak bercakap pasal dengki.
Dengki ni bukan apa, semua orang ada penyakit nie. Biasalah dengki mendengki nie dalam hidup kan. kalo tak dengki, tak mungkin orang panggil anda manusia.

Saya pun pernah dengki kat orang. banyak kali. sapa tak pernah dengki??? kalo takde tu tipu la kan... kalo nampak kawan kita dapat result best sket nak dengki. Jiran sebelah beli sofa baru, nak dengki.

Tapi, sampai bila kita nak mendengki? apa yang kita dapat kalo kita nie suka mendengki? dapat duit ke? Kalo dapat duit sebab dengki tu, sah2 duit tu tak berkat. Sikap dengki ni buat kita punya hati jadi busuk taw. Orang yg tgok kita dengki kat org lain pun dapat chop kita nie kaki dengki. Tak ke imej kita dah buruk di mata org sekeliling kita?

Tak cukup dengan itu, kita asyik merungut je pasal si polan si polan yang dapat something something and kita cakap macam mana si polan tu dapat bende tu, apa yang si polan dah buat. Ish ish ish.. tak baik sikap kalau diamalkan. Ditambah2 dengan fitnah. Kalau betul mengata, kalau salah fitnah. Sebaiknya janganlah kita suka mempitnah dan menjatuhkan orang lain. Kalau bersaing, bersainglah dengan adil. memberi produk/servis yang lebih baik. Ini lebih sihat. Ini tidak. Dijatuhkan pesaing2, lepas tu produk/servis masih tak berubah. masih di takuk lama. Ini BODOH namanya.

Penawarnya senang sahaja. Dengki nie perasaan dalam diri. Kalau ada orang yang dapat sesuatu lebih daripada kita, kita patut BERGEMBIRA bagi pihak mereka. Jangan la lebih2 sampai buat kenduri pulak. Cukup kita tumpang gembira dan berdoa agar kita diberikan benda yang sama dengan orang itu.

Tetapi, janganlah kita mendoakan seseorang itu ditimpa bala, walhal dia tak pernah kacau hidup kita sekalipun. AWAS. Kita ini sebagai manusia yang punya akal fikiran rasional dan mempunyai perasaan, mestilah sentiasa mendoakan kebahagiaan semua orang.

Material atau Sahsiah?

Satu je ungkapan yang aq nak cakap dalam Malaysia tentang RMK-10 dan apa2 perancangan untuk membangunkan negara. Mesej ini ditujukan kepada mana-mana pihak yang terlibat atau terasa. Bukan nak mencerca atau nak menghina cuma sebagai renungan kita bersama.

"MAKSIMUMKAN SUMBER YANG ADA, GUNAKAN SEBAIK-BAIKNYA. PEMBANGUNAN MATERIAL SUDAH ADA KINI TINGGAL PEMBANGUNAN SPIRITUAL YANG PERLU DIUTAMAKAN."

Oleh itu, sama-samalah kita bangunkan negara kita dengan semangat muhibah dan tiada hasad dengki.

Wallahualam

Today's quote

"I don't know how to say good bye"

Steamboat, Mami and Flamingo

It was a damn stomach-full day. We ate until we dead.
Celebrating our beloved aunt, Mami, my sis, Dura, together with my cousin, Siti, Suri and Jiji and Siti's fiancee, went to Flamingo steamboat. It something like Shabu2.
I went to KL yesterday evening, and we had our dinner there. Staying there for about two hours, we took all food there, except rice. My aunt told me.
"Eat as much as you want. Don't feel shy. Just eat until your stomach burst. (this one i made it :P)"
There the feast went very well. I took some ice creams as my starter and my dessert. We had ABC, yong tau fu, seafoods, and not forget some marshmellows with chocolate sauce. Well, that night i was touch with my aunt's word.
"Finally, my wish to bring you here is granted."
I'm touched with her intentions. Although she force me to eat a lot (yes she did) I still love her as my late mother.

*Still thinking 'bout my internship placement. where will I go after this? I hope I can see a new horizon later.

Wallahualam.

Nice Numbers

Although I hate numbers, sometimes it makes me feel happy for no reason for example
20/10/2010

It makes me smile with no reason
I Love it
^_^

My Personality Type: The Determined Realist

My Personality Type: The Determined Realist

Why I am so lazy today?

CONVO- Cation, Square and Fair

Today, some of my friends are graduating. They are now free from books, assignments, tests and homework. They are now stepping into a new world.
I'm happy for their success.
I hope I can have the same success when I graduate later
2012.
Here we come!

LIFE loves to PLAY

I do not know what happen
It seems life is playing with me
the more I try to run away
the more it comes nearer to me

Please help me
Let me go this burden
Let me find another island
Let me kill the past

I hate when you hate me
I hate when you are angry
I hate when to cry

Anda Bijak? Bimbing, bukan HUKUM!

I hate to generalize. Anything. For me, a person is a person. I cannot put other people with same ability as the same. Dalam erti kata lain, jangan anggap orang dalam satu kelompok itu sama. Rambut sama hitam, hati lain2.

Satu persoalan ditujukan kepada semua pembaca. Sekiranya anda mempunyai pengetahuan yang banyak dalam satu2 bidang, adakah anda akan memandang rendah orang lain?

Satu penyakit dalam manusia pada masa kini ialah, apabila mereka belajar ilmu lebih sikit, dah bongkak. Malaysians, some of them ada yang berkelakuan macam itu. Kerana apa mereka bongkak? kerana mereka tahu sesuatu perkara lebih daripada orang lain tahu.

Pengajaran daripada tajuk ini ialah,
Sebagai seorang yang berilmu, kita mestilah sentiasa bersikap rendah diri serta mendengar pandangan orang lain. Kita juga mestilah mengajak orang ke arah kebaikan serta MEMBIMBING mereka bukan MENGHUKUM mereka kerana kejahilan mereka. Sesungguhnya pengajaran berhikmah itu lebih baik daripada pengajaran menghukum membuta tuli. Memang akan ada orang yang mencemuh kita. Namun, sesetengah makian itu ada betulnya. Jadi, kita tengok balik diri kita, apa yang kita dah buat salah dan bagaimana kita dapat membetulkan kesilapan kita serta menjauhi kesilapan itu di kemudian hari.

Peringatan ini ditujukan kepada diri sendiri dan mana-mana individu yang berkenaan. Kalau tak sensitif jugak, WALLAHUALAM!

Arus Media Perdana Sudah Terpesong

Sedang isu ini hangat dibincangkan di sekitar universiti saya, perlu saya menyuarakan hasrat hati saya tentang isu media perdana negara sudah terpesong daripada tujuan sebenar ia diwujudkan.

Sedih untuk saya katakan bahwa arus media perdana negara Malaysia sudah terpesong daripada objektif utama ia mula dilancarkan. Pada saya, media2 tempatan bersikap lebih berat sebelah dan tidak adil kepada para pembaca mereka. Saya masih ingat lagi ketika saya masih bersekolah, surat khabar utama seperti UTUSAN MALAYSIA, BERITA HARIAN dan METRO merupakan antara media2 yang kami sekeluarga akan beli.

Kami akan baca berita2 yang disiarkan berbincang tentang itu dan saya bangga pada mulanya pada kerjaya seorang wartawan dan saya pernah menyimpan cita-cita untuk menjadi seorang wartawan.
Wartawan pada awal zaman sebelum kemerdekaan merupakan wira yang gagah melaungkan suara kebebasan dan sentiasa bersikap neutral semasa melaporkan sebarang berita. Para wartawan dahulu cekal mengumpul maklumat dan sentiasa berani kerana benar.
Pandangan ini merupakan pandangan peribadi saya. Sebelum itu saya ingin bertanya kepada para pembaca. Sedarkah anda, arus media di malaysia seperti surat khabar dan stesen televisyen sudah berubah daripada sebelumnya?
Saya seorang yang suka membaca, terutama akhbar2 tempatan. Selepas Pilihan raya umum pada tahun 2008, saya dapati setiap surat khabar sudah tidak melaporkan berita dengan jujurnya. Saya melihat mereka lebih suka melaporkan perkara-perkara yang memburukkan pembangkang. Bukan saya mahu mempertahankan pihak pembangkang, tetapi saya melihat perkara ini dari segi rasional, dalam pertandingan merebut kuasa di Malaysia.
Sedih sekali apabila saya menemui betapa KOTORnya pihak media pada masa kini sehingga saya sudah tidak dapat mempercayai kebanyakan berita dalam surat khabar.

Metro Harian pada misalnya, sudah melakukan banyak penipuan dan kesalahan sepanjang penerbitannya. Kami suka membaca Metro Harian kerana pada mulanya berita yang disampaikan agak menarik. Lama kelamaan saya melihat kisah2 yang dibawa terlalu bohong, terlalu bodoh malah MEMUNDURKAN MINDA MASYARAKAT MALAYSIA. Saya memang membuat provokasi terhadap akhbar ini kerana akhbar ini merupakan satu sebab penyakit masyarakat malaysia menjadi bodoh dan tidak berkembang. Saya masih ingat lagi, semasa saya tingkatan 5, metro memberi laporan palsu tentang kemalangan sahabat saya pada masa itu. tiada temu ramah sempat dilakukan tetapi metro harian tetap melaporkan laporan palsu. Saya rasa tertipu. Maruah seorang wartawan serta merta hancur di hadapan mata saya.

Utusan Malaysia dan Berita Harian lantaran sudah hilang akal dalam memperjuangkan kebebasan melaporkan berita. Ada sahaja isu yang dibawa untuk menjatuhkan pembangkang. Sebelum ini, tidak pernah di dengar akan utusan malaysia mengutuk pembangkang dengan begitu teruk.

Saya mengerti akhbar2 tempatan bertanggungjawab untuk menyebarkan idealogi kerajaan kepada rakyat. MALU. SAYA MALU DENGAN WARTAWAN PADA MASA KINI. wartawan yg menjual maruah mereka kepada wang ringgit. Sebaran idealogi itu penting, tetapi BUKAN MENJATUHKAN ORANG LAIN! Penyakit orang meelayu pada masa kini ialah suka menjatuhkan orang lain. BODOH. Sangat BODOH. Anda tidak berlaku adil sekiranya anda tidak berusaha memajukan diri malah anda lebih hina daripada apa yang anda hina.

BAru-baru ini, kami dikejutkan dengan artikel daripada UTUSAN MALAYSIA mempersoalkan moral dan etika pelajar universiti pada masa kini. Kononnya generasi pada masa kini sudah pandai menggunakan teknologi untuk menipu pihak akhbar. Lantas akhbar yang tersohor ini mengatakan teknologi juga yang merungkai penipuan itu. Adakah penulis artikel ini BODOH?(maaf, ayat terlalu kasar) Bagi kami yang melihat gambar itu, gambar itu tidak diedit menggunakan aplikasi yang menukar apa2 pada gambar itu. gambar itu tidak diubahsuai. Latar belakang itu memang ada di Malaysia. Tempat kami sudah dirancang seperti berada di luar negara. Apakah yang cuba dibawa oleh penulis artikel ini yang boleh dikatakn suka menghentam keromo memalukan universiti tanpa usul periksa MENGHUKUM TANPA SIASATAN.

Mencemuh para pelajar akan sikap mereka yang suka menipu orang di akhbar? terus menulis artikel.
WAHAI WARTAWAN YANG PERNAH AKU SANJUNG SELAMA INI,
ADAKAH KAU MELAPORKAN SEGALA YANG BENAR?
ADAKAH KAU MENYEMBUNYIKAN KEBENARAN?
APA KAU LLUPA TANGGUNGJAWABMU SEBAGAI LIDAH MASYARAKAT
SEDIH AKU MELIHAT KAMU
SUDAH HINA LAGI DINA
HILANG SUDAH HORMATKU PADAMU
KERANA ENGKAU ORANG YANG MENIPU.

Wallahualam.
Renung-renungkan, timbang-timbangkan
tepuk dada, tanya iman

God's Will

Something happen 2 days ago.
I am happy with what I received.
Thanx.

10.10.10

I love this figure very much.
It is so meaningful to everybody.
I hope I can have something meaningful today too...
I hope so.

*mlm nie sheikh Muzhaffar kawen ek? takleh tak tgok nie.. haha...

Loneliness

I hope my loneliness will not kill me.

I Run Away

Post paling malas penah dibuat :P

RULES:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Tag 10 friends

5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.

6. Have Fun!

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Chalak-Chalak- Devdas (mabuk2.. harini penuh kot blaja)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Oh My Darling I love you!! -Mujse Dosti Karoge

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Ashlee Simpson- L O V E (^.^)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

Gila-Mila (Memang dah gila.. masuk utp lak tu...)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Love Game- Lady Gaga (apakah? Owh skandal byk sgt.. hahaha...)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Spanish Lesson- Madonna (Purque? Fernando Jose~ haha... ingat rosalinda plak...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Luruskan Hatiku Ya Allah- Mawaddah (Asek selalu tak lurus kan.. huhu T_T)

WHAT IS 2 + 2??

Strangers in the night- Frank Sinatra (Aktivity malam?? hahaha...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

You are My Soniya [Love]-Khabi Kushi Khabi Gham (My love tu my best friend ke?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Gori-Gori- Hum Tum (Ala2 awek dah nak kawen dgn org len baru nak ajak dia kawen .. huhu..)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

We Belong together- MAriah Carey (Silap lagu ek?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Nothing That I Can Say-Lady Gaga (memang tak taw nk ckp apa2 pasal si dia :P)

WHAT WILL/DID YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Chutii2 Bhai- Hum sath2 Hain (Memang kena. Menari bangra la aku nanti..haha..)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Duka Megat Panji Alam-Roslan Madun (Aku mati kot. hahaha...)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Swades- yeh jo des tera (Tolong org la... haha...)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

my DIl goes Humm... Salaam Namaste (JIwang la plak... borink2... haha..)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Perfect Lover- Britney Spears (Hahaha... susah nak cari nie...)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

One Love- Jason Mraz (Kan? mestilah... haha...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Honey-Money (Hahaha... sume nak org belanje mkn jer... haha...)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

I Run Away- Britney Spears (I will. Someday)

GLEE- I'm Slave for you

Currently addicted to GLEE, but this episode is the best I've ever seen.

Syawal Ini

Syawal Ini
Syawal bermakna buatku
Dua insan kuhilang
Dua insan kutangisi
Dua insan kusayangi

Syawal Ini
Syawal Pertama Aku
tanpa dirimu
tanpa madahmu
tanpa senyummu
tanpa teguranmu
tanpa redhamu

Aku berserah
pada takdir yang membawa
pada nasib menimpa
pada Ilahi kurela
asal hilang deritamu
dari kewujudanku

Syawal Ini
kuberserah pada-Nya
sekiranya tiba masanya
kubersedia menemuinya
kerana aku
sudah lama mati di dunia ini
buat selama-lamanya

Lari

mari berlari
berlari dari reliti
kita pasti akan bertembung

matamu buta mataku juga buta

kau bisu aku pun bisu

kita saling melihat tembus seperti angin

kita bermain dengan takdir oleh Dia

kita lari bila bertemu
kita buta bila bertemu
kita bisu bila bertemu
kita kelu bila bertemu

diam-diam
mataku buta hatiku menjerit
telingaku carik lidahku malu

diam-diam
aku marah aku kecewa
aku menangis aku sesal
aku gila

diam-diam
aku buka mata aku tadah telinga
aku buka hati aku logikkan minda

diam-diam
aku sayang aku gembira
aku senyum aku tersimpul malu
aku gila hanya pada masa lalu

mari kita lari
walau nasib menemukan kita
walau takdir memainkan kita
walau Tuhan menentukan segala

Kita lari

Of Raya, an Engagement and Internet

As Syawal is still ongoing, so it is not too late for me to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all people out there :P

Just wanna share some moments with you guys. huhu.... Last Raya was not so happening but have many 'pening' things. huhu... Dengan adek bradek tak baliknyer, raya tahun ni dgn my sis, Dura and my cousins jer..huhu... sedih taw... then raya kedua baru my bro fikry balik... so raya nie sempat la ziarah kubur arwah ummi n abah. In ONE day!

Kubur ummi. Kubur Abah tak sempat nak amik. lupe bawak camera.

haha... bukan apa.. Last year raya tak sempat. Aq pun sempat ziarah kubur ummi n abah masa cuti sem. Lepas raya haji. tu pun sebab cuti...

my sis, Dura--> Single lagi nie.. sape nak masuk meminang meh la.. haha...

ni anak sedare sepupu.. Mikail. Perangai.. hyperactive toll... susah nak pegang do diam2..haha. Comel kan?

Raya ketiga tu, my cousin, Siti Badariah, bertunang.... hampir semua sepupu aku dah kawen. separuh dah berpunyer..haha... bile la turn kakak2, abang2 aku kan, Dura? haha... majlis tu tak la grand2 ala2 fairy tale. ala2 org biasa sudah. Bkn byk duwet pun.. tapi ok la.. stail kampung. Nanti, kalo bertunag, aku nak buat camni la. senang. tak byk duit nak guna.. hehehe...

Hantaran dari pihak lelaki. Simple. Sape nak kawen dgn aq kena ikut cara aq taw... haha..

Tak tahu la apa dah jadi dgn aq lepas raya nie. makan punye makan tak henti2. cam nak makan je hari-hari. Tahun lepas takde la camnie. Ni tahun nie byk pulak makan. Boroi perut aku nie.

perutku boroi~ gambar gugel

tapi bile masuk UTP, selera dah kurang dah. tapi kengkadang tu kuat jugak melantak.wakakaka.. biasa la.. orang lelaki makan banyak. tak boleh jadi nie.. kena pose enam gak nie... kang tak pasal2 berat badan naik mendaddak. Sume orang cakap aku dah gemuk..huhu... tak pasal2 kena kurangkan beratt badan. Kena eksesais nie.. yah.. yah... hahaha....

gambar ni hot.. haha.. gugel jer...

Sejak balik UTP nie, Internet cam cipsmore. kejap ada, kejap takde. selalu available jer... apekah yang berlaku? Sekarang la dah ok sikit. tapi still tak boleh online lama2... chantting pun dah kurang. tapi apa yg chatting nye? akademic, project, ajak kuar mkn. tu je la. seb baik tak ramai dah bertanya kt aku. kalo tak.. naya kot.. chat2, putus.... haha. tak ke naya kalo info tak sampai n sebabkan salah faham.. Internet UTP nie dah semakin kong agaknyer... eh, ckp dah upgrade kan... haha...

Post ni dah lama tersadai sebab setiap hari lepas cuti raya mesti penuh nye jadual. Plus Internet yang sengal cam chipsmore... siap main chiku cak dengan aq lg... huhu...

Jangan marah2 yer.. bulan puasa nie.. eh silap raya... haha... Kita terus sahaja berlari. Lari dari realiti.

my cousin, Syafiq, Bakal Pilot. Nak tiket kapal terbang free mintak dgn dia nanti..hahaha....

Selamat Hari Raya

To all friends and foes,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

I would like to apologise for my wrongdoings. Hope all of us will be blessed by Him. Amin...

Raman

Birthday Abah

Semalam Birthday Abah
31 Ogos
Ingat nak buat abah
birthday cake
tapi


Abah dah takde
:(

UTP Daily

This morning, I woke up and did some blogwalking. Once I hit my friends' pages, entitled "Listed on UTP Daily", I took a look at the page.

I was listed there.

HAH? How do they know my page? Mysterious~

Benci

Lantang suara kau
menghina satu insan
yang punya perasaan

Lantang suara kau
mencemuh sikap dia
yang tidak kau suka

Apa kau ahli sufi
yang tinggi darjatnya?

Apa kau insan mulia
yang dijanjikan syurga oleh Nya?

Marahku pada sikapmu
yang suka membenci mereka
yang tiada berbuat salah
padamu?

Hei manusia
Sesungguhnya Tuhan
menjadikan kita pelbagai

Tadah tanganmu
bersyukurlah kau
dilahirkan normal
segala-galanya normal

sedangkan sekarang
kau bongkak dengan dirimu
pada yang lain?

Jika anak cucumu
ditakdirkan begitu
mahukah kau menerimanya?

bongkaklah
bencilah
hinalah
sekiranya mereka
tidak berlaku kejam padamu
maka kaulah
yang menzalimi mereka

Gendang

Selama ini aku memukul gendangku
Akulah yang menari mengikutnya

Aku bebas memukul gendangku
Aku bebas menari mengikut rentakku

Itu gendang aku

Aku bertemu denganmu
Kau memukul gendangmu
aku suka mendengar gendangmu
aku suka rentak gendangmu
mula menari bersama gendangmu
sampai aku terbiasa dengan gendangmu
gendangku pula terbiar tak sudah

Malang tariku mula berubah
kau yang murka
memukul gendangmu penuh amarah
langkah tariku memohon kemaafan

gendangmu masih kedengaran
langkah tariku kian rosak
aku mengangkat gendangku
aku letih menari maaf

kini ku pukul gendangku
bukan mahu melawanmu
aku mahu irama baru
harmoni hidupku
tenang jiwaku
cantik tariku
itulah aku.

الموت في رمضان

Ha za Ramadhan
fil khair wa barakabillah
Ad 'ullah
بلدي الموت في رمضان

Kasihku pada-Mu
tidaklah seagung kekasih-Mu
Muhammad

Setiaku pada-Mu
tidaklah sekuat hamba-Mu
para Malaikat

Imanku pada-Mu
tidaklah seampuh jagaan-Mu
para sufi barakah

Ramadhan ini
hanya satu citaku
hanya satu pintaku
بلدي الموت في رمضان

Akulah si tamak
akulah si bongkak
akulah si pendosa
yang berada di dunia

kupohon pada-Mu
تتلاشى لي من هذا العالم

Ha za Ramadhan
fil khair wa barakabillah
Ad 'ullah
بلدي الموت في رمضان

Saf Pertama

Sayu hati
melihat saf yang pertama
dipenuhi oleh mereka
untuk menemui
Yang Maha Esa

Saf itu
pernah menjadi sebab
dia berkejar dari kamarnya

pernah menjadi tempat
dia menyembah Yang Esa

Pernah menjadi sebab
dia mencari Takbiratul 'Ula

pernah menjadi tempat
dia membaca Kitab-Nya

pernah menjadi sebab
dia zuhud pada hawa dunia

pernah menjadi tempat
dia berwirid pada-Nya

pernah menjadi sebab
dia berpegang pada Imannya

Kini Saf itu laksana larangan
pada kakinya
yang membawa ke tempat maksiat
pada tangannya
yang melakukan maksiat
pada hatinya
yang sentiasa bermaksiat

menyebabkan dirinya malu
untuk bersemuka Sang Pencipta
di saf pertama

Mimpi

Last night
I had a dream
I saw you and me
we talk together
you smile at me
I smile at you
you greet me
with your brightest smile
I want to hug you
I want to hold you

Then I throw my pillow
my blanket
and my phone
to the floor

It was a dream
it is not true
but it is enough
for me to smile
to hope
that both of us
shall have the moment
again

A Week of Ramadhan

It has been a week we have been fasting in the holy month of Ramadhan. We fast, we pray, we recite Quran more, we perform Tarawikh Prayer, we have our Sahur and many more. This Ramadhan should make us a better person. All of must must try to be. Just Allah will determine whether we will change or not.

Right? Nail it.

Happy Ramadhan And Salam Aidil Fitri

Dear friends,

I would like to wish Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims and Salam Eid Fitri. I'm sorry for my mistakes whether i realizes or not, right now, I apologize on behalf of myself and all of you had gives me lots of kindness where only God can repay your good deeds. I pray to Allah, for all of you are always be blessed by Him. Thanks for your support and your cheers for me since the first time we met. May this relationship be blessed by Him. Insya-Allah.



Abdul Rahman Abdullah