Harapan

Aku tersenyum
Melihat kekhilafan diri
Yang pernah satu ketika
Menarik jiwa ini
Jauh ke jurang kegelapan

Aku tersenyum
Melihat air mata
Yang pernah kutitiskan
Setelah sekian lama
Bertakung di sungai duka

Setiap kali embun turun ke bumi
Setiap kali itulah aku menjalin benang kekuatan
untuk menempuh hari mendatang

Setiap kali kulihat sinar mentari di ufuk langit
Setiap kali itulah aku menanti bunga harapan
agar mekar membunga dari kudupnya

Aku yang mengejar cahaya
Aku yang mengejar cinta
Aku yang mencari jalan pulang
kepada-Nya.

Dream: Masjid

It was afternoon. I just finished one of the chapter of my subject which i waited for tomorrow. And sure if you study on your bed, you'll fall asleep. Yes I did. And guess what? I had a very weird dream.

I was at Masjid Negeri Perak in Ipoh. I usually went there to perform my prayer, sometimes, If I just come back from Kuala Lumpur. But the architecture is a bit different. It has two stairs to second floor but the verandah is too big and too open. The Imam was giving some sort of preaching to the people in the mosque. He talked about a topic; when your heart is connected to masjid, you will feel the feeling. I'm not sure why i was touched by the topic. My heart was really touched by the preach and I wanted to cry for it. I went downstairs to perform my ablution. I was too embarrassed with the situation so I took my face down and went to the water pipe. There is a guy in front of me. He's tall. and i didn't see his face. But he was wearing a shirt, stripes, red or something, like a corporate guy. I was performing my ablution and suddenly he tap on the water than flowing and let it pour on my head. I was pissed off after several times, so I changed to other pipes. And not to forget, I saw my roommate in my dream. As people gather to perform the solat, he did his solat outside, in wrong direction at the ablution place which is watery and uncomfortable. Then I woke up.

What just happened?

An Enlightenment on Banner Issue

Assalamualaikum and Good day to all people.

As I arrived in my room from Jumaat Prayer, there is one post which attract my attention to explain about politic issue in UTP. Allow me to enlighten the issue in the manner where this post is open and does not fall to any side.

My reading is based on a post from this blog:
http://pengelanatimur.wordpress.com/2012/03/23/duta-mahasiswa-penjelasan-sebuah-tamparan/

Dear,

Allow me to explain some points which I found not really accurate in the situation and as a leader, I am convinced that you could handle this issue professionally. As we know, not many people prefer to talk about this issue, but let me post it here as my comment is too long to post in the Facebook. Your idea, Sir, is splendid and gives benefits to UTP students. However, I would like to explain some issue which I would like to express it in a proper manner.

Before we go further, we will look on how this issue become a big issue and how we should handle this issue properly.

How it happened?
It was a nice evening where everyone is tweeting in tweeter talking about their life, excitement, not to mention thoughtless tweets. Then suddenly somebody tweet on something about SRCUTP Facebook (fb) page. As a curious person, I took a look at the page and saw iFest banner in SRCUTP fb page. SO, where is the issue?
Scrolling down the page and I see lots of them shout, angry and disappointed with MPPUTP. And I see the similarity of the content tweeted by those people.

"They do not like the banner wording."

WHAT IS THE PROBLEM? it's just a banner. Then I looked back at banner. There are some words in the banner which is not suitable to be placed in the banner. The issue is there but some students were too emotional in the twitter or their style of writing looked in rage.
As the banner is about religious issue, thus we cannot run from associating this banner appearance with one of the famous student body in UTP (If you know what I mean). Sadly, some of us were too carried away with our emotion thus blaming the student body controlling MPP. However, do not blame us because this issue becoming a hot topic after 2009 Campus Election. Enough for me to put here history do play part in this issue.
We do not oppose the program even we support if more programs will be organized in the future. However, it is not to our liking where the image of Islam is deteriorated from this banner. As I mentioned in my comment before, some of it:

"A good program with a good content with a good intention and expecting good result from the program. However, there are some words are not being used correctly to show the intention of the program resulting to audiences to see the program as an insult to other religions. Thus this will create a bad image to the religion itself....... Choosing the right words is essential for social harmony...."

There some rationals we need to consider talking about this issue.

With the slogan "Towards Development of Students' Integration", this 2012 line of MPPUTP wants to develop students with four aspects with three highlighted aspects; Spiritual, Culture, and Sports. Let us pause for a while and ask ourselves this question:

"Do UTP students aware about this? "

We do understand the situation faced by our MPP as they face a hard time with the students. As someone in the organization for a long time, I understand the author understand what efforts had been done to solve the problem and what hardship they faced in the past. But that one should be used as a lesson to push MPP to become a better one. We are waiting for you to come out with ideas which benefit the students.

Students never want iFest to be stopped. There is no comment which want the program to be stopped. Just go on with the plan, organize the program. We do not oppose the program.
What we demand from the page is to CHANGE the SRCUTP fb page banner to other picture. There is no opposition towards the organizing the event. Please be clear that we do not oppose any religious events. If the events just for you guys and you want to promote it to us. Just go on! It is one of your effort towards da'wah to your friends, right? And if we do not interested, then you already accomplish your duty. To spread His Words. And it is up to us to join the event or not. We re not being cynical towards religious programs, it is just one mystery elements which distance us from you guys. (OK now I'm grouping you).

We do understand that banner just for promotion and MPP does not gain any profit from the banner, but considering our other friends from other religions, we think some words may hurt them. Seriously. One comment from our dear friends comment that

"What happened if a banner is produced where the topic is 'Denying Islam and Muhammad Prophecy' or other religions too.... "

I'm touched with the comment. From our friends which I believe, not a Muslim. And I would like to explain more, I think it is INAPPROPRIATE for you to put us as 'being too caring and sensitive' in this issue. Well, I do not see this program invites all people from various religion background to join this program. If not, why such provocative words are used in the banner?
This is different than InFUD program which had been done before. We look at the program banner, it seems like it just for Muslims, not for all. So how we can improve this banner which can appear more welcoming to our friends?

As we are dealing with people, we cannot get angry easily, plus as a leader, we must listen to all opinions, comments and views from all parties and judge it wisely. It is not that this issue should not be discussed but this small things could lead to disharmony in the future.
Plus, dealing with young people, MPP need to be aware that some students do not have mentality like we do. Some people think the other way around and it is the leader responsiblity to re-direct the thinking parallel with what they want.
I would like to touch an issue about those who protest the issue hardly, which are Muslims because they think that banner is a big issue. For you it might seems small, but not for some of us. And if you say you cannot satisfy all people, that is true! But at least make it less offensive, even we as Muslim do not feel ashamed to talk about the banner.
And I would like to address this point to those who came out with some comments about Al-Munafiqun. As I observed the comment, it seems this guy is trying to say that those who protest this program, especially Muslims are Munafiq. And you sir, being pious and disregard people's feeling are good? Indeed, a very good person you are. Please bear in mind that we are not selling our religion when we protest about this. I'm disappointed with the student's attitude where he wants to label people as Kafir as disagree with the banner. This is the point where some of us, who do not have 'enough' religion teaching think you guys are bad. Bad people gonna be bad bad bad bad bad. And you guys? Hail to the Haven, may Lord Bless your souls! (I'm carried with my emotion, haha..)

I'm not a person with religious knowledge that much. I rarely read the Quran and I cannot remember much Hadiths. However I do understand people around me with different religion backgrounds and cultures with different personality. For me it is a crime for you to openly disrespect other religions.
I'm here to come out with my points about the banner issue and our sensitivity to our friends. We are not opposing Islam nor supporting other religions. We do understand the need of the programs, and we value the efforts done to make the event a success. We confess we did a lots of negative perceptions towards those who went to the mosques and Islamic programs. However, where does the negative perception come from? We understand NOT ALL of you are like that, but there some of you who are very negligence, very extreme and very sceptical to us until it make us away from you. This is the situation where the quotes:

"It is not the religion which distance the people, but the people in the religion did".

It is similar to what you had said before. If you cannot approach us and understand our thinking, How we suppose can understand what are you telling us?


Cheers!

Selamatkan Adik Natasya!

Memandangkan hari ni birthday aku dan aku sebenarnya nak buat kerja tapi dilayannya tido ternganga ha kau.. memang tak jadi la. Jadi aku buat lah entry kali ni...

Hari ni twitter sibuk bercakap pasal sorang minah ni yang kata bangga dapat minum arak. Dan dia cakap dia tak buat maksiat pun...

My first reaction was:

"Wao minah nie! Hebat siot minum arak masuk facebook! *kutuk xde agama la blah3"

Then aku pun join sama2 la kutuk2 kat twitter. Tiba-tiba rasa nyesal pulak.

"Sedap mulut kau kutuk orang. kau ingat kau tu baik sangat?"

Aku pun mula la nak tgok siapa budak ni dan apa masalah dia.
aku buka Nota Kosong punya blog. Kisah Adik Natasya Loffa.

Ini entry tertunda Nota Kosong. Sebagai orang yang sambut birthday hari ni, aku rasa agak terkilan la. Ada jugak sambut birthday togok arak. Aku pun semalam sambut birthday minum kopi tin sambil tengok Man U lawan Spurs semalam. Tu pun study untuk test pagi ni.

Sebagai orang yg selalu curious (baca:busybody) aku pun mula la rajin meng-google siapakah beliau ini. Aku jumpa dua blog. Satu blog ada satu entry Natasya Loffa Life dan satu lagi yang banyak entry; Natasya Loffa. Siap ada fanpage lagi! Bertaubatlah Natasya Loffa

Bagi aku, Natasya ni sama je dengan gadis2 biasa di luar sana. Ada BFF, ada boyfriend, ada kawan2 masuk modeling selection, gaduh2 dgn boyfriend, sambut birthday. Normal la macam orang lain. Cuma dia ni mungkin kurang didikan agama la kot. My assumption. Kalau ada kawan2 Natasya tu, boleh la tolong betulkan. Mana la tahu dia belajar sekolah agama ke, kan?

Natasya ni dia sayang sangat mak dia. My assumption Natasya ni anak kepada seorang ibu tunggal. Pasal bapak dia aku tak nak la amik tahu. Bagi aku, mak dia ni kuat bekerja nak sara hidup diorang. Mak dia pun mesti sayang gile2 kat Natasya ni.

Kalau kita tengok komen Natasya pada caption tu, kita pun tahu dia sayang mak dia. Sangat-sangat. Dia pun tinggal sorang2 kalau mak dia tak ada nanti.

Bila aku baca semua ni, aku tak rasa nak kutuk dia lagi. Natasya ni kira antara remaja-remaja Islam yang terlepas peluang memahami ajaran Islam dengan betul. Dalam komen dekat fb tu, dia cakap dia tak buat maksiat. Dia cuma minum arak dan mabuk sahaja. Subhanallah.

Tafsiran aku dalam mesej dia tu, aku rasakan dia beranggapan bahawa maksiat tu bila ada persetubuhan antara lelaki dengan perempuan sahaja. Kalau minum arak ke apa di kira ok lagi.
Itu yang aku rasa.

Ini satu contoh yang baik kepada ibubapa dan dan golongan muda agar tidak melupakan ajaran agama untuk disemai dalam diri anak2. Kadang-kadang ibubapa terlalu kuat bekerja sampai lupa akan tanggungjawab terhadap anak-anak sehingga anak-anak mencari keseronokan sendiri. Tambahan pula, kalau berada di kota raya, pengaruh-pengaruh negatif itu banyak. lagi la risau ibubapa dengan kehidupan sosial anak-anak. Kerana anak-anak itulah yang membentuk pemimpin masa depan. Namun, kalau segala ilmu agama dah diberi, jalan yang salah tetap dipilih, berdoalah agar hatinya dibuka untuk menuju jalan yang benar. Bagi aku, Natasya ni dah kira baik la jugak sebab dia masih sayang ibu dia. Yang lain tu je la agak memeranjatkan. Kalau dia berkelakuan baik, sopan, menjauhi arak dan perkara-perkara maksiat, dia mungkin jadi anak yang solehah. Sejuk perut mak mengandung nanti.

Lagi satu, nasihat kepada semua. Kita tak perlu share private life kita dengan orang lain dalam Internet. Internet ni ada berjuta orang yang akan tengok apa yang kau buat. Dan kalau gambar tak senonoh tersebar mula la jadi isu hangat. So, untuk adik Natasya, aku harap dia delete account facebook, twitter dan blog dia secepat mungkin. Nanti stress kang, panjat KB Mall dan nak bunuh diri pulak.

Nauzubillah.

p/s: birthday rasa tak best sebab ada post mcm ni

Reflection: Pernahkan kita menilai diri kita?

Entah la. Hati aku hari ni semacam je. tak tahu la hari jumaat ke apa kan. Tiba-tiba nak buat status macam ni. Korang pernahkan buat benda macam ni kan? Tipulah kalau takde sekelumit pun dalam hati korang perasaan macam ni. Aku pun ada. Selalu sangat benda2 macam ni berlaku dalam hidup. Kau jumpa orang ni, dia buat perangai macam ni la, macam tu la, dia suka buat benda2 buruk la.
Cuba kita ambil masa kita sekejap. Kenapa kita cakap orang tu buat benda2 macam ni? Kenapa dia buat mcam tu? Apa yang kita dapat dengan kutuk orang tu? Kadang-kadang aku pun muak dengar benda-benda macam ni. Bukan apa, yang kau kutuk tu pun kawan kau jugak, teman kau jugak, saudara kau jugak.

Eh, kejap! Kejap!
"Kau ingat perangai kau tu baik ke? "

Ini persoalan yang akan muncul dalam kepala otak aku bila aku tengok keburukan orang. Kadang-kadang dah susun ayat kan nak kutuk orang tu, soalan ni pun datang. Paling buruk, bila kau dah kutuk orang tu, persoalan tu pun datang.
Kita ni kalau nak komen pasal orang kan, laju je... Ye la! Si polan ni buat benda ni, si polan ni teruk la, itu la ini la.
Pernah tak kita tengok diri kita kat tempat diorag tu?
Pernah tak kita rasa kita pun ada sifat2 tu? Pernah tak kita menilai diri kita sejauh itu.

Aku pun bukan baik sangat. Ada la jugak khilafnye kan. Hidup ni buat silap. Perangai cam celaka pun ada. Bukan semua orang sayang kat kau. Bukan semua orang benci kat kau. Bila kita buat salah tu, mengaku je la. Kalau kau dah jelas-jelas dah salah, jangan la nak deny2 lagi. Mintak maaf.
Masalah manusia ni bila dia nak mintak maaf tu berat sikit. Berat sangat2. Macam ada emas jatuh dari mulut dah kalau nak minta maaf. Biasakan diri meminta maaf. Bukan apa, sebagai seorang yang penuh kesilapan, kita kadang2 tu kena minta maaf jugak. Even benda kecik pun, minta maaf lah sebab dengan meminta maaf orang akan pandang kita ni beradab la sikit.
Nak tahu bila nak minta maaf tu pun satu hal. Kena tahu timing. But people always say:

"Timing is a bitch"

Bukan aku nak cakap timing is a bitch yang anjing betina ke mana2 pompuan yang annoying, tapi lebih nak cakap, nak cari timing tu susah. Dalam hal ni, kita kena jadi sensitif dengan persekitaran. Jadi sensitif dengan persekitaran dengan jadi sensitive person tu lain eh. Nanti aku postkan pasal dealing with sensitive person, even aku pun xde expert sangat dalam hal2 ni. Haha..
Sensitif dengan persekitaran maknaya kita kena pandai respond dengan persekitaran kita, respon pada orang2 sekeliling kita semasa kita interact/ berintraksi dengan mereka. Ye la, manusia ni lain2. Setengah orang, kadar melenting dia lain2. boleh ada level2 la. Ada yg level rendah, ada yang level tinggi. Dalam teori aku ni, level rendah ni jenis yang tak sensistif langsung la. Kau cakap la apa je kat dia, kau kutuk la apa2 pun pasal dia, dia buat dunno je. Orang macam ni dia ada dua jenis je respond dalam diri dia. Dalam bahasa omputehnya: He don't give a F*** . Dalam hati dia hati dia mungkin ada dua perception je pada kita/orang yang kutuk dia:
1. "So what? Bukan aku cilok duit kau pun."-Dia rasa pathetic kat orang yang kutuk dia
2. "Eh??? Apa dia???" - Yang ni jenis blur. Tak makan kutukan.

"Sometimes proud je jadi who they are."

Yang level tinggi ni pulak jenis senang nak merajuk, melenting, marah dan sebagainya. Kau jentik sikit je dia tu, terus merajuk meraban apa. OK. Yang ni banyak jenis respon dia. Aku pun tak jumpa conclusion for this kind of person. Ada certain people ingat orang benci dia la, dia jadi benci orang la, dia jadi paranoid dengan orang jenis macam tu la dan banyak lagi alasan2 yang bermain di minda diorang. Aku pun kadang2 pun boleh jadi gila nak cakap pasal orang ni.

"Eh, baby ni pun nak sensitive jugak? Susah ni."

So, kita kena la jadi sensitif sikit biarpun kita tak sensitif. Sebab apa? Sebab manusia ni taraf sensitivity dia lain2. Kita mungkin la tak sensitif, tapi kawan kita tu sensitif ya amat, kena la jaga mulut tu sikit. Macam aku la. AKu ni kadang2 mulut puaka, cakap main lepa je dah tak ingat dunia apa yang aku cakap. Kang ada pulak terasa kang. Hadoi la~~

Nak dijadikan cerita la. Semester ni baru ambil minor. Dalam kelas tu ada la aku confess tak bawak assignment, then lecturer pun buat discussion dalam group. Dalam tengah pom parang pom prang dengan kawan tu, lecturer pun datang la bagi notes kan. Sebagai seorang yang polite (la sangat. Poyo!) aku cakap la terima kasih dalam nada yang riang. Lepas tu lecturer macam buat awkward. "Come again? What's that suppose to mean?" Hadoi. Masa tu aku dah cuak dah. Memandangkan lecturer tu aku tak kenal sangat, aku cakap la yang aku really mean that gratitude. Maybe some people think our thank is a sarcasm. Owh Please, I don't really do that. I do it occasionally. Hehe... And after the class, I apologize if i misbehaved in her class. Even she said she don't mind it, kata hati siapa yang tahu kan? Tak nak buat benda ni melarat, baik aku apologize. Bukan apa, kalau ada benda yang dibangkitkan, kita cakap la kita dah apologize. on the spot. The one yg nk maafkan is them. kita dah lepas dah minta maaf.

Kadang-kadang kita selalu cakap diri kita baik, tapi kita tak pernah tengok diri kita yang jahat. Bagi aku perkara ni elok kita letak dalam minda kita, kita fikir banyak2, muhasabah diri banyak2 sebab kita pun bukanlah orang yang sempurna. Kita pun ada cacat celanya dan kita kenalah sentiasa berusaha membaiki diri kita menjadi lebih baik. I'm not implying that we need to change ourselves to fit other people, I mean we need to be ourselves and improved our attitude with more positive values. Penting sekali untuk kita buat reflection supaya kita pun boleh faham apa perasaan orang bila dia diperlakukan sedemikian rupa dan macam mana kita nak bergaul dengan dia. Batas-batas pergaulan dan kata tu penting. Bukan untuk menyekat kebebasan kita, tetapi untuk kesejahteraan bersama.

p/s: btw, kalau korang gaduh dengan kawan/sedara pun korang tak selesa kan? inikan lagi orang lain.

Denai

Itu denai yang dia telah lalui
Denai yang membawa diri
dirinya mengadap yang Esa

Denai itu yang dia pernah kesali
dia pernah marahi
dia pernah tinggalkan

sepanjang usaha dia
membuka laluan baru
dia sudah tersalah
kakinya sudah berlumpur
tangannya sudah kasar
hatinya gundah

kini dia mencari denai itu
mengikuti denai itu
sedikit demi sedikit
memaut pada malaikat
melerai ikatan syaitan

Berkecamuk

Susah nak cakap
Benci ke suka ke
tak dapat nak bezakan

Nak berteka teki lagi
Tapi aku dah letih
Aku dah letih

Semua dah berakhir dengan baik
Perlu ke aku ada di sini lagi?
Rasa macam dah tiba masa
untuk aku mencari
jalan hidup sendiri

Ke mana?
entah aku pun tak tahu
Tuhan saya yang menentukan
takdir hidup ini
harap aku tak mengalirkan
airmata lagi
kerana aku
seorang yang pentingkan diri

Lepaskan aku

Ku berlari ke pantai
agar bayu ketenangan
lembut membelai hatiku

Ku berlari
meninggalkan tasik pilu
yang penuh air mataku dahulu

Ku dendangkan satu irama
menari penuh riang
penuh dengan keceriaan

Namun hadirmu
bersama gendangmu
langkah tariku jadi
mengikutmu

Jangan
Jangan kau paksaku
menari mengikutmu
aku sudah keliru

Jangan
Jangan kau bawa aku
ke teluk rindu
menangisi embun sayu
yang lalu

tariku tarian maafku
kepada dirimu
cuba lari dari mu
aku tak benci padamu

mengapa kita berjumpa lagi?
mengapa kita bergendang menari?
Genta hatiku berbunyi
memberi amaran
akan ada air mata nanti

Wahai Tuhan yang Satu
aku pinta pada-Mu
Jangan bawaku
kembali ke tasik pilu

Ku berserah kepada-Mu
pasrah dalam hati
pentas pantai ini
tiada awan benci

Biar aku terus merantau
mencari satu ketenangan
disebalik tabir kehidupan

Lepaskan aku dari rindu
satu rindu yang lalu
aku tak mahu lagi
menangisi diriku

Wahai Tuhan yang Satu
aku pinta pada-Mu
Jangan bawaku
kembali ke tasik pilu

Don't

Don't let me say I love you. Because you steal my heart and didn't give it back to me.

Buat baik

kalo hang buat baik kat aku, aku try buat baik banyak2 kat hang. kalo hang pedajal kat aku. Aku serah hang kat Tuhan. Hang tu kena ingat Tuhan. Akai ada ka?

June

Six things I can talk about my life in June:

busy-but-not-so-busy

Lost my mind

Lost my rational mind

Stressed with my negligence behavior

Got two kids I need to take care

Need to speed my velocity

I want to be myself again

My last breath on earth
It'll never be the same as before
I have changed
This is not me
after all

I listen to the music
I've never heard before
reading poems of love
Who am I right now?
Who am I right now?

This isn't me
This isn't me
Who glare with smile
full of happiness
no fear of disappointment
and my tears only for my dears

I'm now hide my sorrowful life
from the world
My heart is no longer can free to fly
I want to be myself again

Hold my faith
I'm losing all my strength
crying tears all nights
having my heart broke apart
This isn't me
This isn't me

Where can I find my old me?
Where can I fond my past?
I have lived in different life
strayed by the current of life
I'm no longer walk my path
I want to be myself again.

I'm too bad

I counted what I had
I have been on this road for too long.
I'm losing myself
I'm losing all myself
What I had done until now?
Am I becoming so cruel?
So cruel until can't afford to see myself
My old self which I have cheered!

I'm turning into a monster
A monster which is not a good monster
I cry myself on my bed
for being bad and so cruel

I'm losing all myself
please help get me back

This life is about you

Hold your breath
take one deep inside
You know you are stronger
than anyone in your life
As many people don't like you
as you are
as you are

Hey! Hey!
Put the hate thing outside
leave them all
never look back at them
as you are not one should put it on
sure they will realize
unless they have no brain at all

Even they are smart with the high grades
excellent life
they are nothing for you
they are only ache
in your heart

Never! Never let you go
you all kind of things
they only you as a thing
so you look at them
as a group of beasts
eating sleeping and playing
catch you when they need to refill

Just leave the place
Ignore the glare
Just put yourself
under the shadow
of the shades
They are not worth for it
they are not your bliss

Keep breathing
this is not over yet
until you know you can yell at them
with no shame if they need
You just control
You just put that beside
Put that beside
Put that beside

Never need to know what happen in the home
Just keep yourself in the corner
never speak when it's order
Just need time to leave
Yes you leave
You will leave

Just put your right hand on your chest
take a deep breath inside
put it outside
you know where you're heading
and know where you shouldn't
when you should acting when you shouldn't

Get up now
This life is about you
and you
and you
other no matter

Jangan angkuh dengan Tuhan

Tuhan itu adil. Kita yang bersalah.

Plan your Industrial Training. You'll never regret it.

Hi there! It has been more than 1 month I'm having my industrial training. I'm glad I still enjoy my training because this training taught me lots of things (I mean it, ouwh~) and of course I'm doing something related to my studies. but more with multimedia, not software. However, instead of looking it from bad side, hey! I'm learning an interesting thing here. I adores those who masters in the film making and montage making, you're the sifu! I salute those who have the brains to think out of the box to show the world the most jaw-dropping and magnificent artwork.

I think all my friends are happy with their internship placements. I hope this positive attitude will never last in our life. So for those who are planning for your coming internship placement, do not feel weird to plan from now because it's never late to plan for the future. I heard some people complaining they have to do some tasks which are not related to their field. Let me tell you honey, you choose the company, the job scope and you must make sure your training must have something to do with your field. Never say any regretful thought once you have started your training. Why don't we look through some steps to search for a compatible company with your career prospect.

1. CHOOSE
What are you expecting from your internship? having a better understanding in your field? or just to pas by the internship because you want to finish your studies immediately. If you are looking for work related to your field, choose the companies which their core business is related to your field. If you want to choose something out of your field, you can choose other companies too. but later, do not regret with your choice you made. Remember.

2. PLAN
Plan which company you would like to work with. There are tonnes of them out there. First, choose the company which has the highest rank. Go for the best! DO NOT limit yourselves towards one company only. Make a list of companies you would like to have your industrial training. Make it until 20 to 30 companies. No worry, we just open ourselves for an option.

2. RESEARCH
do some researches regarding the companies you would like to go. Open their websites and learn what services they offer for you. Some companies will provide some information about industrial training they provide for practical students. They are hunting for people with top attitudes for their companies so it's your choice to perform your best work later. Please make yourself available for any talks from companies who visited your university. who knows you can find your placement when you attend the talk? And search the company core business and how you as practical students can learn from the company.

3. APPLY
Once you are convinced there are several companies which you like to have your internship, apply to the company with a proper approach. Use proper words and if you received any offer from any company. Do not simply decline an offer. and Please, do inform Person-In-Charge from SIIU so they will know your status. and never feel lazy to call them. if you try to tell them n receive no reply from them, that is not our problem. Ahakz~

4. CONFIRM
If you have made your mind to accept the offer, please reply your confirmation immediately. If you do that, you have make at least 3 people smile; you, the HR personnel who call you, SIIU personnel who handle your internship. The rest, Insya Allah you will face no problem.

5. LOCATE
It is wise for you to find the nearest house to your workplace because you do not want to increase your transportation cost. If your internship place is near to your house, why not just stay at your house. Free accommodation and food. You just need to worry bout the transportation only. But if it is far away from your hometown, it is better to find the house and some housemates~ it is quite expensive to pay the house rent by yourself. So do plan where are you staying and with whom you are going to share your house.

6. FOCUS
This point has no relation to the internship. Just focus on your final exam. Do not get distracted with this thing. but still you can carry on with confirmation of the house, the deposit, ect.

Any way, Good Luck peeps!

Happy New Year 2011.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Currently I’m updating my blog from my bus from Shah Alam to Paka. Although this is the second day of 2011, I think it is not late for me to wish happy new year to all my blog readers. I hope all of you will get what you want. Well, nothing much I want to have this 2011. My hope this year is, I hope this year will not be filled with misery that much. Looking back in the past year, 2010, I think I lived with misery, most of the time. I cried, I felt disappoint, I want run away from this world and disappear forever. Well, after I reflected my life before, I think I have to make sure my life in this new year full of joy, cheers and fun.

Why should I spend my life with something which I will never get in my life??? I kept asking myself last month. Why should I cried over a spilled milk? Why should I bother those crazy nuts outside there when I’m fooling myself here. Very well, I just let them get the hell out from my life. ‘cause I don’t want to cry again, to fell misery, to feel the anger and scream it out from my life.

Peeps, you know that we should move on and put that shit behind and never look back ‘cause there’s nothing you will get back from those nuts. Just move on and live our life the fullest!!!!

And my last word today,

Put the misery outside and carved a beautiful smile from now on.

Have a blast!

Quotes: Annoying

"Before we put a person as annoying, put ourselves first in the place."

Of Laughter and Tears

Come!
Let us live up our life
Fill it with laughter and tears
Marching upon our ways

Listen!
to the rhythm of the nature
give us a new adventure
it something worth for you to capture

It's our LIFE!
Full of laughter and tears
Never put in any fear
'cause it will never make you any near
to the life you desire

Just let the past to cry
and see the future smiles

you never know what will come
and if you can handle it with the vile

Just keep it on until we die
Let Him guide us with His Light
So just go on and go on your life!
It's the only thing we can have
to have a life!

It's our LIFE!
Full of laughter and tears
Never put in any fear
'cause it will never make you any near
to the life you desire

There's no one control you
you are now only you
to decide is up to you
It's only you.....

the 190th post

Tolerance: Am I losing it?

This morning, I woke up with curse and hatred. It was damn cold morning and it's my fault to not using my blanket. But my mind keep cursing and cursing. After a few hours, I looked back. Why should I curse and hate in early morning? Since when I suddenly become so intolerance and hating people easily? But I cannot express my hatred. Do I need to have have one?

I think I'm losing my tolerance nowadays.
I need to find myself.